This may need to be moved to unusual beliefs but couldn’t start post there.
Does anyone here just disappear from the forum for long periods or off and on because they fear the people in the forum?
I admit I do. I will get some answers to my questions or posts and then start thinking why am I talking about this to them they will use it against me or find me or whatever. I get freaked out - paranoid and stop coming around.
Online is so much better than in person, but it is creating a new paranoia I didn’t have - the internet and www.
We all share your problems here. Nobody “gets” anyone here. Except for the occasional fight, everyone here is accepting of each other. We like to share our problems. Thanks for sharing about the paranoia. That is courageous on your part.
I am so like this, too! I fear mostly bystanders on the internet, non-sz, will come and decide to figure out who I am. They will track all my internet history down by my IP address. In this day and age, it might be possible, but not very plausible (meaning that it can happen, but that doesn’t mean that it is a certainty that it has already/will happen)
I just try to remind myself I’m here for support: to give and receive. Even if I get exposed, to heck with those shadow spies! Let them read my posts. Sometimes, I leave little jokes here and there and I have this image of secret service dudes reading this and trying to hold back a smile at some funny comment I said.
Do the voices ever go away completely? Why are some days better? I am on new dosage of meds. I have a good day yesterday but still having visual delusions and I believe that I can see people that have died. I think this is the hardest part, because it seems so real to me.
Just ask yourself: Has it ever happened to you? If they really wanted to find you out and do you harm, wouldn’t they have done it by now? I mean you can easily get a person’s address and phone number on the Internet. Wouldn’t they have done it by now?