Panic attacks

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I have already mentioned that I get panic attacks every 3 weeks. Those are my only symptoms, I have no voices or symptoms otherwise.

What I find strange is that, I get controlled into masturbation eventually towards the end of the panic attacks. So,I figured if I masturbate early, like 1 hour into it, rather than 4,5 hours into it, it might end sooner. And, last two times it did end in one hour only.

This is so strange to me. I think it may be related to the fact that I had no sex drive on Clonazepam, and once I quit it very fast, I started getting panic attacks. So, somehow it all got related to sex drive…as for example Clonazepam stopped anxiety, so I got rebound anxiety after stopping it. There were some effects of Clonazepam, for which I got counter-effects after quitting it (the converse of the effects that is). This is the only way I can make sense of what happens with me.

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The way you describe it, you have a choice to masturbate after 1 or 4 hours.

So in my opinion you still have a choice and I wouldn’t call it controlled.

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No, when I resist, it is forced. The mild voices asking me to masturbate keep on going on, until I do it. So, sometimes I resist it as I am not comfortable doing it, but eventually I have to do it, for the heightened state of anxiety to go away. I am saying, this is really strange. I can’t explain it completely.

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It could be masturbation to tackle anxiety.

Have you tried taking a benzo instead?

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I quit benzos after 7 years of extensive use (upto 4 mgs of Klonopin a day). So, I avoided that, but I tried every other medication and nothing works.

I have to ride the symptoms out, the panic attacks are getting less frequent and intense I feel, over time they should go away, as Klonopin withdrawal is causing them.

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And, yes, masturbation and anxiety seem to be related in this case I also think. Somehow, it makes the symptoms go away.

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I hope you find your way out of the anxiety trap.

But I wouldn’t worry too much about it.

Since you can control it for a couple of hours, it’s not like you’re going to masturbate in public. You can hold it until you’re in a private space.

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Yeah, definitely, it is not happening in public haha. I try to get secluded when I get an anxiety attack, because the symptoms can overwhelm me around people. Not just this, but I mean the voices increase if there are people around me, thereby increasing the anxiety, and thereby increasing the voices. So, I just have to ride those periods out alone.

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I’ve had similar panic attack that I feel unwell with louder voices. Then I just take a benzo and some clozapine to sleep. After I’ve slept I feel better.

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The problem for me is that, while a benzo may provide relief, in the long-term I am getting dependent on the benzo. And, benzos can also cause Alzheimer’s in the long-run. Not only that, they were causing me a whole lot of other symptoms. I hope it keeps on getting more infrequent for me as time progresses until it goes away. Not too long ago, I was getting 2-3 panic attacks in a week. Now its once in three weeks.

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I don’t have these attacks frequently. I think I take a benzo once a month.

It’s not addictive to me and it helps in those cases.

It’s the way that I deal with it + clozapine. Have you tried clozapine as a PRN?

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No, I have taken Haldol as a PRN. It works somewhat, but the way it goes away is that I have to masturbate eventually.

I tried many PRNS, as well as taking Buspirone, Hydroxizine, and a couple of other medications every day. Nothing works. I doubt Clozapine would work, too. But, I will talk about it with my pdoc, he seems to have given up as well.

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BuSpar can increase sex drive.

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It didn’t in my case-- plus it was like drinking water, it had no effect.

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I take Tranxene as a benzo btw

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Thank You, I will look into it.

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Just masturbate more.

I personally feel much better after.

I do it in the morning and the rest of the day I feel cool, calm and collected.

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I am getting a panic attack as of now, I am frozen in fear, and I am getting more aware of the surroundings.

Like the attention span changes, I can notice details around my room that I usually don’t. Voices are very mild and far apart, but I am fearing that they may start in full swing.

My arms feel as though they are not part of my body, and I am here to distract myself now.

I was about to go for a walk when this happened.

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Can you describe in further detail how your arms feel differently?

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Arms feel like they are slightly disconnected from the body. Like they are not part of it. Like lighter.

Plus, my hands usually shake slightly in these situations.

I also feel during these situations that it is an external force doing it. I am trying to convince myself it is my brain and trying to relax myself.

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