Prognosis are like challenges, its like someone challenged me to avoid being dead by suicide, drunk and alone at age 40. All of the recovered schizophrenics I have met, the very highly functioning ones, (I know some personally outside of this site) have the same approach as me- ■■■■ suicide and schizophrenia. The only schizophrenic I personally know who has never been hospitalized, quit work/school or anything like that is UNCANNILY similar to me. Very hard on himself. Loves metal. Learns to love himself for being a little ■■■■■■ up, accepting the ■■■■■■ up parts as just what makes him unique. Sees schizophrenia as a challenge. He and I both have the same lives, full time students, he works a job outside of school and I am a competitive athlete, we are both equally highly functioning. He takes 160mg Geodon, his main med, I take 120mg, its my main med too. Neither us of us were always on meds, we both survived without them and still functioned very highly.
Its this young men’s no ■■■■■■■■, “smoke this ■■■■” approach to schizophrenia that I see ACTUALLY WORKS. Thats why I throw my cuss words around, thats why I post videos of me training, that’s why I keep on being “dangerous” and “deviant” because it WORKS. I have the potential to kill someone without a weapon, sure, but I am enlightened, have an IQ in the upper 2.5 % of the population, am majoring in psychology and am on three sedating meds. I am far from legally insane today, I know a delusion when it happens and my meds have me 90% symptom free. Im not dangerous, and neither is my friend I mentioned.
I noticed that he is the only person who has never let it get to him, aside from me. Sure, weve had problems, weve been through alcohol abuse, we smoke cigarettes, but we never quit functioning because we see schizophrenia as a threat, and we both destroy threats. He and I have had multiple hour long talks about how we do what we do and how we never gave in, and we conclude that its because we get angry and tell ourselves that enduring this illness ONLY makes us stronger.
And we do just fine. We’re both make good grades (I make perfect grades) and stay productive, we both never feel pity for ourselves. We see schizophrenia as our minds versus our brains, and willpower over wiring. To have a brain that suggests doing things, gives us thoughts that are not based in reality but are plausible, criticizes us, it’s clearly our brain versus our minds. We still have some symptoms, but are mostly recovered due to med compliance.
Sure, its unorthodox, but seriously, my prognosis was “fight for your life”. Thats all I heard. I want to see more people fight. I get sick of logging on here and seeing people who dont take this illness seriously.
It can and will ruin your life or kill you. If thats not enough reason to take something seriously as a threat, I dont know what is. I think some people dont get it…this illness is the worst thing that can happen. Its worse than cancer. People with cancer receive love and support and dont get called “canceritic” and treated like ■■■■. They die with a sound mind and peacefully slip away.
Now we all have had 100% no mercy episodes, when our minds shatter and we cant even do things like eat. I remember mine perfectly well, I was hitting my head against the wall screaming and didnt know what day of the week it was, I was hallucinating too much and couldnt think straight because my mind was in “delusions-only” mode. Thats not ■■■■■■■ peaceful and people are afraid of us when we are like that. In those episodes, that is when people kill themselves, when it wont stop for a second, when we just want out. I started slowly making my way to the kitchen to commit seppuku and my parents knew exactly what I had in mind and they took me to their bed and just stuck me their and told me to lay on my stomach until it passed.
And that sort of ■■■■ happened a number of times, and I went to school and the gym the next day.