We talked about what would happen to me if I got pregnant…
I’ve been depressed and it’s made me feel I want to be pregnant because I miss being a mom
She said I’d probably shut down emotionally and physically… She knows me really well and I KNOW I have PTSD from losing my daughter to child protective services due to an abusive relationship and the rough pregnancy
I feel awful but I can feel my depression lifting a little and I’m able to think a little more clearly and realize a baby would be a really bad idea and it’s something I may want but shouldn’t have