On day 3 without my medications

I’ve been pushed a lot since I was 17 to take my anti psychosis meds and I did like I should. One summer though I went without them for 2 months and I had a mental breakdown and was almost admitted into the hospital again. Well after that I was under strict watch to take them and I did. Recently I started to skip a day and go back then maybe skip another day. Now I’m on day 3. I only eat a small amount of food a day and hardly sleep anymore. I go to bed at 4 am and wake up at 6 am, yet I’m not tired. Honestly I’m very depressed as I haven’t left the house in a long time and have been doing nothing but playing video games. My meds are used to make my voices in my head go away and be quiet but honestly I miss them after not hearing them, is that messed up?

So now I hear them again and I like them being back. I don’t know why but I find other people very annoying lately, probably why I’m not leaving the house. Well I know if I go a while without taking them my mother will find out and force them down my throat like she usually does. I just wish people could accept me for the real me and not the medicated person I always am.

I was the same, missed a lot of my voices. They’re the only ones who are always with me…

Still you get a week or two tops and you’re going to relapse and have to go back on again. Don’t forget about the reasons why you went on meds in the first place.

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Danny, usually voices tell people things that can lead to harming either them or others.
that’s usually why they were given meds.

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Remember what that mental breakdown was like. Is it really something you want to experience again?

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no meds plus terrible sleep cycle… not a loving combo… @Anna is right you will probably relapse… but I disagree on her timeline due to your sleeping 2 hours a day and not eating much… talk with your doc about your depression and other issues your having… but I would recommend taking your meds and talking with your doc as soon as you can… im sorry your going through this…

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