Even when i don’t have voices, they live with me, by my side.
They are always with me, narrating my life almost controlling my fears. That’s what my therapist helps with most, my fears
Delusions seem like old memories, very distant. I feel sane now. But sooner or later, same delusions persist
Oh yes. Annette narrates what I do. It drives me crazy
Do you get paranoid ones?
Not really. In the past i had paranoia about aliens, following me, spying on me, reading my mind. But I don’t have it anymore. I have many grandiose ideas
Paranoia drives me crazy, quite literally.
What kind of paranoid thoughts do you have?
They’re following me
They’re going to kill me
They’re spying on me
There’s a sniper
Pretty much anything you can think of, I’ve had it.
Once I had the experience of a sniper.
I was in my car and I bent over so the enemy wouldn’t see me.
During the summer, I put up cardboard boxes over the window so they wouldn’t snipe me, or throw a grenade in the window.
Do you have insight? A small part of you knowing that it’s irrational?
I had to get my mum to turn the car round today. I thought we could go shopping but I was worried about surveillance agents. Gonna close my curtains now
Now I do, I didn’t have it earlier when I was really unwell.
Do you have paranoia often?
You do have insight now, but they persist?
I have minor and major delusions, as I call them… Major ones are the problem. But minor ones are a pain in the ass too
Pretty much all the time. Don’t hallucinate until im really stressed. Been smelling a brimstone smell in my flat, on the street and in mums car. I am hallucinating the smell
Meds don’t help? Do you have insight?
Yes I have insight now, but they do still persist. One thing that helps is keeping positive thoughts when I’m having a tough time.