I thought that my neighbour told me to kill my whole family, but he ever deny it. I pick up bottles and throw them to his house two times in sight of everybody even i told him that i hate him but… after two years later with improvement of my schizophrenia i realized that i hear voices outside of my head and … he, my neighbour did not tell me that. That was an hallucination. I feel stupid. Also i had a fake memory of a sexual abuse that never happened ( this was during a psychotic breakdown) When i ask to my mother about that she told me something really diferent from what i remembered. Oh god, please dont judge me.
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Are u on medication Alan…?? Med might help…
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Im taking my meds. I ever thought that people around me were psychopaths who want my suffering but now i realized that i hear hallucinations because im schizophrenic. Im better now with my meds and ignoring my delusions.
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Which med are u on Alan… I am on seroquel and rispredal… What about u…
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Yeah I believed some stuffed up stuff. It was really embarrassing and I even did some strange stuff because I went psychotic at a workplace of like 300 people.
I really wouldn’t worry about it though. Concentrate on now and the future. I just got to a point I wanted to move on and I no longer spent energy on that stuff. It was all smoke and mirrors anyways and I had no control about what was happening.
Schizophrenia is a serious business but we all move on a forward. No one judges you here. I’m sure with time no one will judge you in life either. Peace! It’s all good…time to get better!
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Im on risperidone
I have seen the stupidest person in the world and its not you.
That guy…stupidest person in the world looks like a regular guy…supersocial and funny. But the thing with him is that nothing sticks to him. He has all kind of things happening to him but his brain cant print experiences into itself. So it seems to him nothing happened. So he doesnt grow mentally.
But to a regular eye there is nothing strange about this guy.
Growing mentally is when something happens to you and maybe you dont record right away. But then as a result of the first thing a second thing happens and you will recognize that the second thing was a result of the first thing and you get gently starteled. You think …oh my God that can happen like that…your brain records it. And you grow. You are not the same as before.
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None of us is perfect. We’ve all done daft stuff whether mentally ill or not.
I can tell you more about this guy.
If you tell him a simple sentence. Then he stops at it and starts obsessing about it. So its dangerous to tell him anything cause the info he picks up is so primitive. You think…why would he worry about a simple thing like that.
Like he cant solve problems in his head.
A normal person does it unknowingly. Like someone bursts out a sentence and a regular person think…oh he doesnt mean that …this happened to him and thats why he is saying it.
Your not stupid at all. I’ve known and heard of stupider people than you, you just had a misguided belief that’s all 
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