Mood plummeted today

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So from yesterday, my mood plummeted. Today I woke up feeling really depressed, my husband says I’m not myself, that he doesn’t know me like this. The weather is overcast, reflecting my mind. I’m moody and irritable and struggling to look after my husband, I moan when I have to cook him food and really just want to stay in bed. Everything is a big effort, like I’m wading in mud.

Made an appointment to see my pdoc tomorrow at the hospital outpatients dept. Feel relieved, as I’m back on olanzapine again and running out of meds, need more meds. I told my husband I wasn’t taking the olanzapine, just the amisulpride, and that olanzapine helps for depression, so he said no wonder I’m so down, that I must go back on it, so I did. Need to push up my dosage of amisulpride too, back to the 600mg that the pdoc prescribed. So far I will push it up slowly to 400mg, as I am taking 300mg now. As much as I try to come off meds and try to cope, I can’t, I face a future of chronic meds. Sigh!

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Going back on meds is rough as your body has to get used to them again and they take time to start working again.

But yeah, be very careful dosing yourself, at least let the doctors know what you’re doing. That’s what I do.

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Yes I’ve come to the realization that I will be on meds for the rest of my life also - nothing I really can do about it.

You might start feeling better on the Olanzapine, it does have pretty strong antidepressant properties.

Maybe you shouldn’t mess with your meds again - Good luck with everything!

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My shrink said the most aggravating thing shortly before he retired. I was ready to hear it, but it still irked me. He said he was doing some continuing education and he wound up talking to a doctor who said when he puts someone on their first medication cocktail they sometimes ask, “Am I going to take these for the rest of my life?” He’s tempted to respond, “If you’re lucky.”

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Folk - and this is for everyone - you may need medications the rest of your life (or you may slowly get better and not need them), but you may also be able to lower the dose (and minimize side effects), or you might find a better medication one day that is even lower in side effects, or you may get a new medication like the new CBD or other cognitive enhancement medications that may also make your life even better.

So - I would just say please keep in mind the medications long term does not mean poor functioning long term, or bad side effects long term. Try to keep the positive things that may happen in the future in mind and not focus on the negatives.

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I wasn’t trying to be negative, just stating a fact.

Meds are a necessity for me and many others, I do realize that its not the end of the world.

Trying to stay positive :smile:

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okay i have just enlisted you into a special club…
not many people get into this place…
it is called " the bunny :rabbit: hug forever club " :office:
it means from now on, you get a bunny :rabbit: hug every hour :blush:
take care :alien: