A year? I’ve had symptoms since I was a kid but it didn’t get really bad until I won’t conquer this. I can hardly survive getting a B in a class. I can’t survive life. I’ve tried to kill myself many times. I think I’ve just reached the point where I don’t care anymore.
I’m just watching all my friends go off in life and realizing that I’m getting more and more insane.
That’s pretty good that you’re getting up and going to class. I bet a lot of people can’t say that they’re doing that. Do you know that I went from a prestigious state university to a small town private college after I got sick. It took me ten years to complete college, and I was like a ghost of my former self. But it was worth it. I got my degree. And I’ve worked, am working now. I have old friends that sent even mentally ill thst can’t work.
I vow that I will die before I stop school. Its all I have left. But even that seems pointless. I’m at very competitive school unfortunately. I fear it will kill me.
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I understand. I went through that too. It’s tough and it’s not fair but maybe you will do something great in ten years from now. We’re all on different paths.
Your friends that are moving on, some of them will crash and burn. Some of them will get divorced and wind up st home. Some might die from drugs. Some might get cancer and die young.
Well people flip out over school all the time. You might even be flipping out if you hadn’t had a break.
I’m just trying to help. Don’t mean to sound harsh,
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Yeah but I have to kms over it.
It’s more like destroy my self if I do poorly
Too much pressure. Take it easy on thyself
I must have the punishment.
You must kick back and unwind.
That is thine homework
No. If I do I risk it all.
Well summer is almost here. Surely you get a break?
I am schooling over summer. I must not fall behind by getting ahead
I am schizoaffective, 42 years old and did all of that. Those are nice life goals. I hope you find the right med to control your symptoms. Hopefully Latuda will work for you. I wish you the best. If Latuda doesn’t work soon you should try Vraylar. Vraylar has reduced my voices by alot. I suffered a much more hellish existence before I went on Vraylar.
Latuda is just very expensive
Give it some time!
Idk if I have anymore to give.
In the time it takes you to read this, a few others in the world have already taken their lives. You’re still alive, so you still have time to choose differently.
I know that you’ve gone on feeling so bad for so long, and you feel that you can’t take it any longer. If it’s any solace to you, you’re not alone. Many people, including myself, can identify with your feelings.
Thinking about suicide is not a character flaw; It doesn’t mean you’re a bad person, weak person or a failure. Thinking about suicide is a symptom of depression.
I hope you never choose to commit suicide. And it is a choice.
Keep hope alive.
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