All day 75% of my thoughts feel intrusive and anxious, im constantly feeling responsible for preventing harm around me and compulsively checking and double checking that i made the right move. I cant relax
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Hugs. Mine got really bad a while back, too. It seems to come and go over time, depending on how safe I feel in general and how active I can be.
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Do you have any advice besides therapy? I iust cant afford it rn because im transferring medicaids over to Illinois
Yeah i hear you. But if you think about it? Doesnt it usually all turn out ok in the end anyway? lol. So whats the bloody point of getting yourself anxious and stressed in the first place.
You need to write it down. Pros and Cons on a list. Take some time out as well, maybe box breathing exercises - or just simply chuck your ear buds in and tune out for a while.
Its all gonna be ok. I mean bloody hell, your dealing with schizophrenia, and you managed so far - its time to recognise your coping skills.
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My advice might be highly specific to me, so take it with a grain of salt.
I find it easier to cope with my OCD stuff if I give myself permission to be weird about things. Anything makes it less intrusive into your life is on the table. If you can’t leave the house because you stress that you left the stove on, you can pull the knobs off the stove and take them with you as a reminder that you remembered. If you get paranoid that someone is outside your room when you’re sleeping, you can get a baby video monitor to check without leaving your bed. If you feel like everything is germy, you can wear disposable gloves. If you stress about contaminants in food, you can stick to prepackaged food that fits your budget.
Whenever I try to chase the idea of a healthy life, my symptoms get worse. When I allow myself the imperfect solutions, I improve enough that I eventually can move to the more healthy options. But I have to remind myself to let go of the shame/failure feelings.
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Thank you both. You both were very helpful
I could start taking pictures of things that worry me, but a lot of it is interpersonal at the same time, and my fiance is starting to get frustrated qith the constant reassurance seeking. Which in itself has made me spiral about how im affecting him. Makes me feel like a burden and depressed, but i want to reapect his boundaries.
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The ocd rituals use to bother the heck out of me but its been better lately. I think the meds caused my ocd
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@Moon I’m sorry you are experiencing this. I struggle with intrusive and anxious thoughts too. I don’t really have any advice for you but just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
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Me too. For years OCD plagued my life, everyday, every minute of it. But then I was put on antidepressants, and that helped quite a bit, but was still hard to get rid of the obsessions and compulsions completely. Now, I’m experiencing them again to the degree I used to.
I guess what I’m saying is that I feel you, and sympathize with you. OCD is no fun, the best therapy tool I’ve taken from therapy is just to let it go, but that’s impossible without medication, it seems like.
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This got to Mr. Star after a while, too. We figured out what was happening for us. I such at planning tasks, so I like doing things the same way every time. If he helps me with something a couple times in a row, his participation becomes a key part of my task planning. That is a bad situation, because it means I think I can’t do the thing without him, and he feels obligated to keep helping me with something just because he agreed to help a few times.
We have now worked out a system where, when we see the pattern restarting, my job is to not ask him to do things for me, and his job is to not offer help. That helps break us out of it.
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