Not going down the rabbit hole!

I have some paranoia about my care team hiding secret folders, saying I’m a psychopath and dangerous. My community nurse has reassured me I’m not dangerous or a criminal. I also have paranoia about the police coming to get me. I’m not obsessing about the thoughts but I have been known to dwell on this. According to my community nurse this is my relapse signature. I’m going to keep on top of this and talk to my nurse on the day I get back from Sri Lanka and I have my depot that day too.

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I hope you can enjoy the rest of your holiday.

You can worry later…

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Why would you have such feelings? They will not come unless you do something bad and I am sure it is not the case. Meds will not let u do that. Try to relax, probabbly comes from your meds, would be best to talk to your doc

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It’s a long story. If I write it here it would just be another paranoid rant, but I know it’s true that I’m being persecuted.

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Do you have a prn that you can take?

Maybe try to go to bed early. A good nights rest can do miracles.

I know it’s not allowed to say but I have been smoking a lot of cigarettes and dwelling on this a lot. I looked for a flight back to England for now and they’re big money. I have no PRN but come get some from the Pharmacy. I only have 5 nights left. I will sleep good hopefully tonight as didn’t sleep at all last night thinking and thinking.

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Maybe buy something that will help you get some sleep. Sleep is vital for us.

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I’m not going abroad on my own anymore. I’m only going to go on short holidays with my group home staff. My care team will be having a meeting about me I think about all the late night ranting emails I sent to my community nurse while being here, this from intoxication, also being sober but I’m not as open when I’m sober. It’s hard not to think and think and think all the time.

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Here they organize group holidays for people with mental illnesses/ chronic illnesses. Maybe they have that in the UK as well.

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@Jonathan2

They do in England too.I have been on a supported holiday from a company - to Whitby which is on the coast - it was great fun, the other people were less able them me but I enjoyed it. It’s a bit expensive going on one but I think it’s worth the money as the care staff really went out their way for us to have fun.

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A good sleep does the trick. It feels awefull if you don’t get the regular sleeping hours

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If they thought you were dangerous they probably wouldn’t let you travel overseas on holidays with just one carer or at all.

I would love to be able to travel and holiday but i can’t afford it and I’m too afraid aswell of going psychotic or something.

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