Not doing good

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Todays not going well at all. I had a really bad episode in the car at about noon 4 hours ago. It was a panic attack with alot of voices all yelling horrible things and the added bonus of horrific visuals of my own death by either monsters or myself killing me.

I made it home and it continued. I ended up in the laundry room shouting at the monsters and their evil voices. Shouting they wernt real and shut the ■■■■ up …this turned to pleading no and i dont believe you.

I self medicated i can still hear them but it stoped the visuals for now…i didnt hurt myself like they wanted to but when this loratab wears off im afraid im ■■■■■■ i can feel it in my chest and head…what should i do i cant go back to a mental hospital i have a little one but i cant do this…advice please and quick…

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If it’s that bad, you should contact the hospital. They probably won’t keep you.

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ER man, you should do it if you’re not able to guarantee you won’t harm yourself. The hospital man, you should go get looked at.

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Though i fear a lonely death
I shall go with no regrets
If the time has come to say goodbye
I will not run and hide
I will stand face to face
And fight against deaths cold embrace
Our swords will clash
My heart will race
And i will seal his ■■■■■■■ fate
Or i will perish and valhalla awaits…
Those that came before me
And those that shall be
Stand and be recognized
For we all ride together
And death has surely followed…

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No pot it makes it worse i havent touched that in a long time and never did much as a teenager…its pain killers they calm all of it down…

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I cant go there will be no one to watch my 1 year old while my gf works. I cant handle the er wait and questions and being thrown into mental prison to be questioned and sedated again. …im feeling a little better i medicated again i feel calmer and more in control. My gf had the day off so the baby is not being left alone while i yell at myself…i know its not real thats a good thing last time i was enchanted…i really appreciate the responses if i feel like im getting worse i will go to the er but for now i will fight it by myself…

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how are you going now @flameoftherhine? I hope things have improved a bit for you.

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I dont know y but this post made me remember to take my nighttime meds just now so thank u @flameoftherhine . Also im sorry ur having a rough time im also going through rough patches. Try meditating it helps but i know its hard to sit still and clear ur head when all that crap is happening. But just remember like alien said if u need to go, go to the er.

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Had another bad one but calmed it my self better now distracting myself as best i can. …alot of saying its not real …

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Good on you for calming yourself. Keep fighting. You are doing really well.

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Hope you’re feeling better by now. You shoulld talk to your pdoc about this, paikillers aren’t the answer to this.

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You’re doing right by talking to us here. Now is a time when you need to get the help of others. Don’t be afraid to lean a little. The pain pills are very addictive. I wouldn’t rely on those too much. Are you taking any benzo’s? That might be a better alternative than pain medications.