Not being the same person after sz?

Hi
I want to ask how many of you feel like they are not the same person since having symptoms of sz?

I’m asking because this one guy told me that having sz/psychosis is kinda like having a rebirth of the soul, but in somewhat painful or destructive manner, maybe a misunderstood manner…

So do you feel like the same person?? in a good way? in a bad way?
say everything you have to say

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I feel sometimes like myself and sometimes not… it fades in and out… I am in early stages of Psychosis though… I am scared of what I will become. I want to feel like myself again

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I should feel like a different person as much as anyone, but I still feel the essence of my younger self. I’ve changed a lot but I’m still me!! I’m glad I’m reestablishing that because for so long I didn’t know who I am.

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I for a long time felt like a totally different person when I transitioned from adolescence to adulthood. Depending on your perspective, I was a different person from then on. Everyday I’m not exactly the same person I was before. Changes are hard to deal with. If you can find something to cling to, something that makes you safe or reminds you of a happier time, that might be helpful?

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He may not know what sz is. He might think you have multi personalities.

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I’ve had SZA/bipolar since I was a kid, so I don’t really know anything else.

Even though I had it since childhood, I was officially diagnosed at 20 years old.

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for me too it varies,
i feel like i definitely wanted to be someone else, but at the same time i was and still am very afraid of it

hes acutally a therapists who deals with people in psychosis so… thats his take on it

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I’m a different person compared to how I was before psychosis. I’m more compassionate and my sense of humor isn’t quite so dark as before.

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Oh I see, so he was sort of using a figure of speech.

I think we sz’s and maybe MI people in general may be more sensitive to everyday changes that occur.

I think overall, the psychosis has made me tougher around people, given me thicker skin. It was a long time in coming, but now I feel confident walking out in public. I’m not sure if I hadn’t developed this problem what kind of person I’d be.

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I feel my sense of humor is the aspect that has changed the most since becoming schizophrenic. I no longer find humor in things I used to, and I used to be able to make friends and family laugh. Even my ex-gf said i turned “hollow”, which is absolutely true

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Bad way
I become more weak mind i cant prove anything to anyone i cant perfom strong rational thinking
I was very strong mind now i am very weak i dont know where voices are going by me i dont know
I am tired very tired
They dont like me talking even talking they wanna deprive me of

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I don’t know, I feel like this was part of my path for enlightenment because I had the opportunity to detox from the world and stay alone in the night for many months thinking, meditating and contemplating.

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Yes I feel this way too… I wandered very far, maybe too far

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I changed since my psychotic break. My sense of humor is almost non-existant. I’m no longer quick and witty. And I feel vulnerable all the time, almost fragile, like any big stressor could destroy me. I’ve stopped talking to people as it seems I’ve run completely out of things to say. I just feel empty, except for non-stop rumination and anxiety. I pretty much hate my life now.

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I’m sorry your life is like this,… I felt like that too once

HUGZ

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Coming back from psychosis the first time I felt reborn. But now I’m in a time loop and I’ve lost my light

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I’m completely different person cause of meds and without meds now I’m the crazy guy walking around real weird laughing like a crazy man talking to himself out in public

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I am the person I was going to be. Schizophrenia is not contrary to what I am but is what I am. I didn’t have any chance of being anything else. My illness was too severe to be overcome. I am not any different in my inability to socialize than I was before the illness. I had trouble with my weight before the illness. I had severe anxiety before the illness. I tried to become someone i wasn’t and the schizophrenia forced me to be the real me.

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Experiences shape a person. It’s like you almost have to change and grow in life as you grow older. I told my dad that the stuff I did while ill was not me. He told me of course it’s you. Everything you do is you doing it, you are always with your self.

So as you grow, you will have both your old self and a new self.

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