Did sz rob you of your presz self?

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I am not the same anymore, i feel like i have two personalities, I was more social smarter more emotions more energy more empathetic, i feel an evil zombie now

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completely derailed everything

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Yes it did. I was a music producer and guitarist pre sz now I cant do those things

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Sz has changed me as well. I feel different…… I can’t put my finger on it?

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Sz made me evil too off meds i am evil on meds i get evil thoughts but dont act on them

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Sz made me a pervert too hypersexual

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Ummm well my first psychosis basically blew up my core identity. So i had a lot of rebuilding to do.
Its interesting if that never had happened I may of continued being a fanatical christian. I was full send prior to that.

Now im more less agnostic.

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Sz is a perverted state, perversion meaning a corruption of natural way

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I do know this, sz has made me angry a lot. I know this also……sz has made me mentally tougher.

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I used to like people. Not anymore. Most of them are judgemental cowards. They judge, talk trash and like seeing people fall. They spread their evil hate because they aren’t nothing. The human nature is brutal!

People as a group don’t deserve anything. They are stupid fu-cks!

I used to be a creative thinker, one who thought out of the box. I have realized that most people don’t think at all. They can’t see further than their own noses.

With meds I can’t think creatively anymore. I was robbed from that. Thanks to this illness and meds.

I used to be happy and full of self- confidence, until I was bullied.

Now I’m nothing. Just as people wanted. I wish I could get angry but I can’t. Again, meds fu-cked me on that.

Some days I feel like I could kill someone. Fuc-king animals!

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During psychosis i prayed a lot heard god talking to me thought i was his son jesus and that i did miracles and that i am king of the world lol i will bring heaven and god to earth

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Yeah i guess it can be a common thing if we grew up with it.

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I had this thing where ‘god’ connected through some radiowave to a certain spot in my head and it would buzz to get my attention. I remember somedays any time I looked at a person id instantly be told what illness they were suffering from and when there going to die or whatever.
Then ‘god’ would take over my identity and talk or yell at people referring to my name in the 3rd person. He kept telling people I was just a wineskin and a vessel for his plans. Then id randomly revert back to myself and back again. It got pretty haywire.
That psychosis went on for like 7 months or something the first time. Without insight to anything being wrong.

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I wish i didnt get angry and violent on low dose meds or off meds, i attack my family physically and verbal death threats, i feel i am a criminal off meds

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Confidence is not anger and violence

@Speedy

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It’s an illness. It’s manageable. Just got to get up and keep going.

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I’m sorry you get angry at your family. That’s not good at all.

But some people are evil fu-cks that deserve hell.

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Yeah, I know. For a long time I thought that anger and confidence went hand in hand. But it doesn’t.

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I think confident people have more control over their emotions but also a lack of emotions from sz causes low self confidence, i read dopamine increases confidence

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I really don’t know what confidence is anymore. I have struggled with low self- esteem and confidence my whole life.

I think confidence is related to the prefrontal cortex. Methylphenidate makes people confident so you are probably right.

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