the past four years a lot of bad things really happened between me and money!
Long story short to present day.
since July 2018 I have been giving woman money to be friends or to chat.
I have social skills now but from jump I had everything all wrong. I thought that because woman online ask for money I was supposed to give them money. But I’m 41 even in my early 20s I never had to give a woman online money just for nothing I bought gifts but never a constant stream of cash. like I was doing.
Today I feel awful I ruined a family members account by making their account go empty because I wanted to make nice with a woman on chaturbate she constantly asked for tokens or money from world remit or paypal.
I kept up the charrade long as I could since the middle of December today was the straw that broke the camels back.
My family members account got locked.
I ran out of money.
And just how i imagined it the person I supported daily with money everyday turned on me and called me a psychopath.
I had bad feelings all the way and i didn’t trust my instincts My intution was saying cut ties this person is bad cut ties. but I didn’t listen today a very bad lesson was learned. to stop giving money to woman online and also the facade of it has just worn thin.
My friends have told me stop giving woman money
I don’t listen and now I feel so horrible
My friend said that
no one respects someone that gives them money.
Friendship and respect is earned.
I’ve built a connection to someone in real life.
I’ve talked to them for three years at first they were hesistant to talk to me or felt uncomfortable and didn’t understand why I kept going back to talk to them.
evenutally I won them over by constantly always giving them a good expierence
when I talk to them
My friend said relationships or friendships like that are real and the respect is real.
but woman I give money too will leave me at the drop of the hat.It all came true.
I think a page was turned in my life where I no longer see it fruitful to give woman money or even entertain the idea because today I feel so horrible inside I know it will go away
but it just shows you how I need to listen to my instincts if it’s constantly saying the person is bad they are bad!
Just my two cents
It’s hard to get away from giving people money even if they don’t ask for it.
I gotta learn thats not how real friendships are made