So, I haven’t been to work, for most of the past week. I stopped going on Thursday, when I realized that someone had stolen a new charger from my room. Coworkers have stolen from me, at work, and people have stolen from me at home. I decided to try to get a lock on my bedroom door, instead of going to work. My mom acted strangely, that night, and threatened to kick me out, if I had someone in to install the lock; I canceled, due to this. I had a bunch of books out from the library, and I thought about leaving, so, I figured that I should return them all, first. I did this. Then, I realized that my library card had been stolen, as well as my temporary ID; I replaced the library card, but the DMV was closed. I decided that I would try to install the lock, myself, and bought some tools, but I discovered that the area for the one part of the knob is too small, and if it gets too wide, it will break the door. Home Depot was weird, when I called; there was a weird beep on the phone, the first time that I called. Then, they just hung up on me, the second time that I called. The pay is good, but the environment isn’t. I feel weird for not having gone to work, but I also really didn’t want to go back there.
You need to get some professional help. It’s not something you can read your way out of nor find answers too. I’m sorry you’ve had a bad run with the health system but if your experiencing paranoia your better off finding some help earlier than run into inpatient when you’ve lost insight and your psychotic.
I would suggest you need to see a psychiatrist if your struggling.
Paranoia is a cruel master and it sounds like paranoia to me. If you are complaining about delusions etc then it’s time to seek help. It’s not reasonable for you to put a lock on your door in a family home because you lost a charger.
I was so paranoid when I was psychotic that when I was living in one of my brother in laws houses, I started putting a chain and lock on refrigerator door to try to stop people from poisoning my food.
For one thing, a fridge is a shared appliance. My bedroom is only mine; it is not shared. Things have been stolen from me, since my mental illness started, and possibly, before, as well.
You could have got a small mini-fridge, and then locked your room off from others.
It actually was not a shared appliance. I was living in the house alone, but was afraid others were entering the house while I was not there and poisoning my food.
If you mean the locks on the doors, no. It was one of my brother in laws rentals and I was not allowed to. but I secured the front door with deadbolt when I was home, so no one could sneak in while I was sleeping. I was really paranoid at the time.
Honestly I have nothing against you but you display behavior that is pretty common around here and you look for others to justify or confirm delusional behavior at that. I understand you’ve had problems with the mental health system. It’s not a great thing but medications do make a difference and there’s good shrinks amongst it.
You know the talk but please don’t troll the site with rubbish ideology.
I didn’t have a lock on my door when I lived at home, and I would’ve liked that privacy. Why didn’t your mum want you to have a lock, do you think?
I’ve had stuff go missing at work too, but I learned my lesson and just don’t keep anything valuable there any more. I wouldn’t quit my job over it because I would only be hurting myself.
Everyone is entitled to privacy and a sense of security. Without a lock on my door, I don’t have that. People steal from me. I don’t want to have to worry about this, anymore. Thus, the desire for a lock.
To deny someone this, is abusive and controlling.
Am I an equal and valued member of my household, or a hostage?
