So hi everyone, I’m new cause I got a few questions. I’m not a schizophrenic and not that there’s really anything horrible about people who have it, I’m pretty troubled about the issue about it. So ok to start off I’m pretty high right now so everything I’m saying might seem all over the place but it’ll all lead directly to my question. I recently moved across the USA from CA to NY, and after a few days of me and my family arriving here I decided to take some Molly that wasn’t really Molly but had high levels of PCP and meth in it. I’m a recreational/everyday user of weed so Molly and harder drugs really aren’t my thing. But anyway I’m a pretty stressed and anxious person in general so using substances ease my pain and anxiety, so to speak. Now, I got into an argument with my mom, and remember this part, we were staying at my uncles house and I remember her “kicking” me out of the house for a while till we both calmed our selves down. I decided this would be a good moment to take a roll of Molly and I did just that. 30-40 mins later I begin to feel the effects but I’ve taken REAL Molly before so this feeling I was having wasn’t like before and everything at that point felt distorted. I felt scared and wanted to call 911 but was worried about legal repercussions from having a controlled substance in my body and being noticeably HIGH! So my uncle lives in a pretty rural farm town in New York, and he loves up on a hill so I’m walking down the hill freaking out and go to a nearby neighbors house and ask her to call 911 and I’m also having stomach pains at the same time so I tell her that. She calls 911, then a few minutes later a cop and an ambulance arrive. Cops come up first and check if i have any weapons on me, I obviously don’t. Then the Paramedics proceed. They ask if I’m Ion drugs or anything and I say no…
Now to skip that whole part, I arrive at the hospital, my mom arrives 30 minutes later because MY uncles lab decided to follow me for some reason lol, and police found where I was staying from his collar address. The doctors are somehow staring to claim it’s schizophrenia for some gosh awful reason probably cause o told them everything feels distorted and time isn’t real lol, I was tripping which made my depression and anxiety much worse and made me feel like my life was over. So stupid doctors decide to shoot me up with Ativan on my IV needle to calm me
down which doubled my high and my mom tells the doctors I told her I wanted to kill myself, which I did tell her weeks before when I was depressed about a lot of things plus the fact I recently had a good family member pass away from Cancer. So of course that makes it worse. Then my uncles wife told my mom what the doctors described, could very well be schizophrenia. My uncles wife is some mental health “expert” but she isn’t an expert enough to know the difference between a bad trip from being laced— TO schizophrenia! Even though no one seemed to notice I took Molly, the doctors decide to hold me for like a week and evaluate me against my will and somehow find the cause behind this imaginary schizophrenia. So I get out of the hospital, everyone labels me as a schizo even tho Tox records show I had drugs in my system at the time of hospitalization and I kept telling doctors that, BUT NO they kept insisting its all a part of the mental illness, not that I could have just fu$&@ing taken ecstasy! So every time I would go out with some girl and I’d tell everyone, they would question me like I’m crazy and ask me like I’m delusional and I really can’t score dates cause I’m just a delusional prick. And every time literally that I was describe something I’ve seen or experienced, the same. It was always my uncles D-Class wife who’s supposedly a mental Ralph expert. So now, most people in my family have this schizophrenic image of me besides my mom and brother for the most part who seem to think I’m pretty normal.
Honestly, this whole fiasco has led me to have hate for my family in my heart and honestly cut ties with all of those bastards.
So please, can someone please tell me what to do as far as ridding my self of this schizophrenic image that people seem to portray on me, or is it really time so cancel my ties with these A holes!
Sorry for the long ranting and venting it’s late at night and I’m pretty high.
If anyone’s curious, I’m 20.