My love was young love…very much love…but we were young…I think probably a little more self aware then some other young people…we all develop at different stages …but still that can be quite the confusing head trip when you have but a vague idea of who you are and you find yourself head over heals about another and then there’s the whole merging thing where you have to figure out where you end and the other begin…and then madness engulfs you…it’s like feeling a thousand years old and yet forever a kid. I can’t say at this point that that is necessarily an entirely bad thing though.
I’m finding that I’m still getting to know myself all over again after going nuts for six years. Some of it is simply getting reacquainted with who I had been but a lot of it I’m finding is new and different.
You are innocently lying, nobody is perfect, you just feel that way and can overlook problems because you love him. And it is happy. But you are not lucky or special for being happy. You are just a person that has a love for a person. It is good, but do not be smug or you are taking the situation for granted, and anything can change at any time. Be glad that you have a good situation, and wish wellness to the world.
Most people are too dishonest to admit that they are full of fear and insecurity and would prefer everything to be easy and plain over challenging and rewarding. It is hard to find a mate that will admit this. People want a fantasy of easy and fulfilling relationships, but this is a paradox. You can not have both and easy and fulfilling experience. People need challenges to feel strength and happiness. I have only met rare people that can have this insight and speak the truth of it. I wish everyone could be honest and stop having unrealistic fantasy of relationships. Good relationships are mutual work and autonomy and enjoyment because of the respect and love of each other’s individual personality.
It’s kinda old school that cliche about the man being the breadwinner and the one to totally support the family. While this is important, it was so abused that the flip side was that the woman was supposed to stay at home, cook, clean, and be 'barefoot and pregnant."
I had one situation almost totally reversed. Girl worked and had 2 incomes, I worked at her place taking care of her property and farm, did most of the cooking and cleaning, and all the repairs and maintenance…so she made more than I did and I worked for her.
Except I was NOT pregnant, LOL