hey y’all. My name’s Donna, but feel free to call me whatever you’d like. I’m an 18 y/o female who was diagnosed w schizophrenia last year. I’ve found 2-3 others who believe me, and i’d really appreciate any thoughts or comments! About 6 months go I started to hear voices more often than normal, and then one day I hung out with a new friend; I had the worst time of my life. I felt literal pain. I could’ve sworn that I was going to die. I could hear him talking to me and trying to get me to go with him somewhere and get me to believe that magic was real. (Let me explain…) When I first met him he recommended that I watch a show on Netflix called, “The Magicians”. I fell in love with it right off the bat. In my head he was telling me to remember about the show because there were people who could read minds/talk to people with their minds (telepathy). Everytime I tried to block his voice out, I would feel less pain. So I began to mentally build up strength, and I felt perfectly fine after I did. In my head though,I was immensely focused on “defeating him”. I stopped associating myself with him because I Was so freaked out. Whenever I tried to tell my best friends about it I would change the subject or forget halfway through the convo. I could never finish telling anyone. it felt so real, so I looked for answers and ended up reconnecting with an ex. (SUPER WEIRD BTW) I was thinking about him and then I got a text FROM HIM. He was explaining how he knew what I was going through and how he feels for me and has been wanting to reconnect because he had a"feeling" about me. CRAZY, right?! Well, the other day I was with 3 of my closest friends, and I began to hear voices, but for some reason they weren’t me… they usually are…except for when Im in a group. So I began to wonder if they were my friends thoughts… I tried to talk to them over and over again and I had a feeling that they could hear me because they avoided eye contact THE WHOLE TIME. Imagine this… we’re all chatting normally, and then dead silence… nobodies looking at one another and then my best friend Sammy breaks the silence with… “donna… are you talking to me right now?” and I Burst into tears. basically screaming how I thought I was going crazy and all of my other friends start to tell me how they could hear me too (I would try to talk to each of them) but then two minutes pass and they ask why I’m crying, so I repeat what just happened and nobody knows what I’m talking about. As if their minds had just been erased. So I tried to talk to one of my friends again, but without making it obvious or anything, and he yells “We got it! We can hear you, okay?” and I sat there confused and in pain for some reason. Like, this is freaking amazing if I can talk to y’all with my mind, but they just seemed jealous. We stopped talking about it after that. my legs were shaking, I felt as if I was dying once again. I start to tell my friends how I can feel their negative energy, and if its aimed towards me to stop it because I’m super sensitive to energies. WHERE THE HECK DID THAT COME FROM?! Of course, my flipping ex was texting me throughout the entire time I was out with my friends and he reminded me to breathe and stuff which helped a lot. He then continued to tell me that he believes I’m psychic!!! Idk what to believe anymore. My doctor or my ex?
I can’t read long posts, but welcome!
Have u seen a pdoc ??? Donna…!!!
Welcome here. Hope u enjoy ur stay
welcome to the forums
Trust your doctor. You re not a psychic…
I have, but I tend to shut them out without intending to do so 
Hi! Nice to meet you Donna. Good job finding this forum 
It is a nice site with cool members 
You were just hallucinating out loud and you didn’t even realize it. You are not a psychic nor any of this non-sense.
Trust your doctor.
I’m sorry to say it, but those sound like vivid hallucinations.
I’ve hallucinated conversations before. It’s scary and disorienting.
Voices sometimes sound like people we know, but they’re still just hallucinations.
Are you on any medication at the moment?
Really?
You don’t know who to believe?
Trust your doctor and don’t listen to your ex.
I’m sorry I couldn’t read your entire post.
Its basically a giant wall of words.
Welcome to the forum!
Welcome to the forum!
The seemingly metaphysical experiences we have are incompatible with a healthy grip on objective reality. Strive to become more grounded and don’t look for those experiences, for sanity’s sake.
I’ve had VERY similar things like that happen. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know how to explain it.
First welcome to the forum ! You’ll find comfort here if you are willing to receive it.
It seems your ex is consciously or unconsciously trying to confuse you.
You are NOT a psychic, I’ve been there. You don’t have a magical gift, you CANNOT read minds. Listen to your doc, take your meds and flush the poisonous people in your life down the drain.
Having sz is hard, with time you should recognise what is real and what is not.
Take your meds!
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