New beginning

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These past 4 months has been the most torturous months of my entire life. But I woke up this morning and I’m fine and I’m better. My head is so clear, the dead people are gone, was able to function today very easily, I’m incredibly happy. My mood is so amazing…

I figured out though that this was suppose to happen like this today specifically because I have been keeping track of specific times and specific numbers and dates and lining everything up perfectly and it all came together and I calculated evrything and I realized that this was all planned out, like I’ve been a big believer in fate and all that ■■■■ but I know that this was suppose to happen like this. I was suppose to be cured on this day and I’m just happy about it and I feel so much ■■■■■■■ better it’s crazy.

Finally I am free.

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Glad to hear you’re doing better.

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Thanks :slight_smile: :slight_smile: :slight_smile: :slight_smile:

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I thought I’d sleep tonight but still can’t seem to sleep, or get tired…well I should say last night now because it’s morning.

I haven’t slept in a little over 20 hours which isn’t THAT bad because this is very normal since feb. but I thought tonight would have been different.

I just don’t want to see bugs anymore. I don’t want to feel bugs on me either.

I know that I am better now because of what yesterday was, but I think my eyes need to adjust.

Like when a baby is born, and their vision is blurry or something maybe they can’t see well for a second as they enter into the world a new world

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It always takes me a while to straighten my sleep cycle back out after an episode. Do you take a sleep aid?

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Any supplement or med that boosts gaba can help with sleep.

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No I’m not any meds right now, and I’ve tried sleep aids in the past and they don’t work well for me. Also the sleep aids that used to help some have no effect on me anymore so I just gave up on that…

I feel like for months now I’ve been snorting cocaine or taking speed or something (I absolutely have not been doing that) because I’m wired all day and night and can only sleep for 3 hours if I’m lucky but yet I don’t need any more than that cus I’m so awake.

I used to sleep like 12 hours a night

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I get that way when I’m hypomanic. It can be dangerous. Sleep aids don’t do anything for me, either. Sometimes, it helps to lie down and listen to an audiobook or guided meditation video for a few hours. I don’t sleep, but at least I’m lying down with my eyes closed. It gives me just enough rest to keep going through the day.

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Do you have some links?

Also I don’t think I’m manic or anything. I think for the past months I’ve just been stressed with the fight with my dad, being homeless, and the dead people doing things to me. But I’m no longer being tortured by the dead people so that’s why I’m so confused right now on why I didn’t sleep last night.

What other things happen to you when you’re hypomanic?

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Please stay with your Mom or find another safe place to live @TheStrange.
You don’t want to be Homeless for the rest of your life.
Also consider getting back on your meds.
Got to take care of yourself.

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Hypomania is characterized by increased energy, motivation, and happiness and decreased need for sleep. Mania is even more of the same but you become delusional about what you can do and partake in high risk behaviors

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Yeah I know I want to stay with my mom and she wants me to live in a group home. I want to get my own apartment she says no would never work.

And I have a psychiatrist appointment set up for next week, but idk if i need to go anymore. I feel a lot better since yesterday and idk if the movie will show the good or not like this recovery because I’m not entirely sure of when the credits happened. I did hear a song that told me and let me know ok the credits are happening and it was actually very troubling for me because I was like oh ■■■■ it can’t end like this because I haven’t gotten better yet like I’m still being tortured. That was before yesterday though so this is all becoming so confusing

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Oh ok I didn’t know that

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I am really glad you are feeling better today but in my experience those good days don’t last too long.

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I would go see your psychiatrist and talk about meds.
Going to live in a group home sounds pretty cool.
I am slowly transitioning into a group home myself.

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Thanks. Yeah some things are starting to happen very bad but I’m just gonna see like take this one step at a time

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What is the group home like you are going to? Also what rules do they have???

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Well it’s not a 24 hour supervised group home.
It’s really supportive housing.
I have my own room and lots of freedom.
I will be living there with two other cool roommates.
Check it out with your Mom.
It can’t hurt.
Beats living on the streets.

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I hope you go to your psychiatrist appointment. I use to not go to doctors when I was manic and that cost me a great deal of time after the mania went away to get back in to see the doctor. I know mania feels great for awhile but it may just burn you out with little to no sleep.

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Will you be sharing a bathroom?

I’m glad for you though that you found a good place that works for you and ur happy about going to

And yeah my mom asked me to fill out an application for a group home, I was absolutely not ready to send it and she actually took it and put it in the mail and sent it to them without telling me this. She told me that this morning that she mailed it I was like wtf!!!