I’m not sure what to do about this particular issue…I’ve brought it up maybe a couple times on here, but it’s in regards to expediency of treatment. I’m wondering if everyone has issues with this or just me.
My therapist knows I have two mental disorders and yet she’ll just casually tell me she can’t meet with me one week, and me being me I say “oh that’s fine” and then I go 2 weeks without an appointment when really a one hour appointment once a week isn’t hardly enough. And the pdoc talks about getting me medication and setting me up with a learning aid group here, but guess how much of that has happened? 0, because I don’t meet with her again for another month, which is when we’re going to discuss that more in depth.
This is all moving agonizingly slow for me. To me it’s like, I’ve got a broken leg right? So I go into the doctor and they tell me I’ve got a broken leg, no surprise. Then they tell me to make another appointment so they can find out where on my leg is broken. But they can’t schedule me that week so I have to wait two weeks with this broken leg, no crutches, no cast, nothing, so I’m just walking on this leg and then I meet with them again and they tell me where it’s broken, and then I need to schedule another appointment so they can figure out why it’s broken, a week from now. So I go another week, still with this leg that really no one has done anything useful about and I can do all I can to try to mitigate the damage from walking on this broken leg but I can’t fix it myself. So then I go back and they say they can schedule me in for a cast fitting in about a month…and then hopefully the month after that I can maybe get the cast…
Do you see what I mean? This is exhausting for me. But what do I do?? Tell her to speed things up? I don’t know if my insurance will cover more than one appointment per week or longer hours. And aside from that what can they do??
I just feel very stuck right now, could use advice.
I think it its irresponsible of her to keep cancelling appointments. I understand things come up but as you therapist she needs to monitoring you because you are likely in a venerable place in your therapy. If you have the option by the way it sounds might be a good idea to find somebody else.
The thing is I get along with her well. And I think I know that she isn’t really useful to me or the most qualified to handle my issues, but then I think about having to find another therapist, having to re-explain and talk about things I’ve kept secret my ENTIRE LIFE and been encourage to shut up about by my parents and I just don’t think I have it in me to do it again, and risk leaving disappointed and unhelped again.
If I don’t do therapy though, I end up feeling like my mental health is just stuck snd never getting better and that’s awful to deal with. Thinking I’ll just be alone with this forever.
Sometimes I worry the mental health care system is just woefully inadequate like my parents say and why am I bothering anyways.
As you say this I feel guilty. I cancelled my therapy twice and left early once in the last 3 sessions.
Have you ever heard NAMI. They are wonderful and run support groups every week in most areas. May be on the days she has to cancel you could attend a support group instead. People always came and went when I went there. You might even really like it and add it to your regime. Just a thought.
That’s what my therapist suggested. Maybe I’ll look into that, thank you.
I’ve done group before but it was bad. Was with a bunch of kids my age (I don’t feel comfortable opening up with people my age or younger around) who go to my university (chances I could have to see them in everyday life-bad) and to top it off the group leaders weren’t that good.
Maybe Nami would be better? I really want to give the mental health field more of a chance, I’ve just been let down time after time.
Well I wouldn’t disclose a whole lot of information but they do have a oath for privacy every night. Main thing its a group and everybody is coming from a different place.
The one I went to was run by two peer support people and at any given night there were a out 10 people there. All mental illnesses though. Not just szs. PTSD, bi polar, borderline, depression, anxiety ext. All ages and functionality too.
They have them all over the state usually. This number will just give you headquarters but they can further assist you.
I would go more but I don’t have a car and the one in my area is after dark.