I don’t think I’ve had 10 delusions. Let me think…
1 I thought I could communicate with birds
2 I thought I could predict the future
3 I thought I was highly intelligent
4 I thought a certain person loved me
5 I thought I could tell when someone had cancer before the doctors could tell
6 I thought my son died at birth and my family was just going along with him being alive because
they knew I couldn’t handle his death
7 I thought my voices were aspects of my subconscious and even after meds silenced them I felt I
would communicate with them through telepathy
8 I thought people could hear me thinking or thought my thoughts were out loud
Yup, not 10 that I can think of, there may be others that I have that I don’t even know are delusions. Who knows what glitches we have that we’ve never discovered are glitches yet.
-thought that the alien apocalypse had started
-that everyone i love was trying to kill me
-that the food was poisoned
-that my psychiatrist was evil and trying to hurt me
-being watched, followed, recorded
-slipped into a parallel dimension and everyone around me was a stranger
-that there were scorpions hiding all over my apartment (ridiculous, as it was winter in canada)
-that people were breaking into my apartment, hidden, waiting for me
-that people can hear what i am thinking
-that i was posssesed
-that i could not die, was invincible
-in a simulation
i used to think i was smarter than other people, that i had a gift, or knew a secret.
i often become convinced i have broken bones, when in fact they are fine.
All of my delusions are incredibly selfish and self centered, that’s my theme. i think that’s more than ten, sorry
When i was a kid i picked up this quarter with an eye
Devil 2x holding white bundles wrapped up like babies
Sexual dreams
Incubus attacks
World is under a new order
Closed in and despised
Hated
Wanted ti be killed never allowed to get out unless I kill myself
Need to leave this state
Wanted for death. Witches flung demons at me everywhere
Stalking has been a while now. I’m closed im now.
And told to leave this city. Or kill myself but I need to get out. Theres no rest.
I thought I could turn super saiyan like in Dragonball Z.
I thought I could influence the weather with a scream. i.e. tsunamis, earthquakes, hurricanes and such.
At one point I thought I was a prophet.
Had the delusion that I was Cuahtemoc.
Thought Aliens were communicating with me.
Believed artificial intelligence was communicating with me.
Had the delusional thought that aliens were observing every single one of us as there were many species and numbered in the trillions compared to the 7 billion of people on earth.
Really thought the government was spying on my family.
Had the feeling that people were out to get me.
That’s about it. Can’t really think of anything more. It seems so silly now. Numbers 5 6 and 7 are the ones I’ve found most difficult to shake.
Wow! So many love in here, I don’t remember well 10 delusions that represent the course of my illness although I have some that are quite similar.
I feel like crap most of the days cuz of someone who doesn’t want to talk to me, that’s my main and only delusion that I have to deal every day…For almost 6 years
It’s horrible and I’ve been with other people and still I have to remember her. The worst is when I want to be with other girls and they try to stop me from doing so. They want to make me feel miserable for the rest of my life I guess
First in high school I thought I was black.
In college I became very grandiose around my 19th birthday. Delusions of success and power and charm. But really I was really insecure.
I slept with this girl and she complimented me a lot and I became even more grandiose
It was the worst thing that happened I thought I was invincible.
Did lsd.
the lsd gave me insights into myself.
I said “ego is the problem”
So I made it my mission to become less egotistical and stuff.
Had a bad trip where kids broke into my house and fd with me for hours straight. While in loops. And shizz. My friend calls me on the phone says two words “your ego” I say “I know!!!” Became obsessed more with ego being bad. Was hard.
The next year and a half I wasn’t all that delusional other then the ego thing but was messed up and pissed off.
Then I started believing I was an experiment, a game, something special, something like a tv show, Truman show delusion.
Later I was divine. I wasn’t Jesus yet. I was the chosen one. I didn’t believe in Jesus though. Was just beginning to believe in god.
Previously an atheist.
Drove my car like a maniac. Got arrested.
Ok move on. Clozaril. At first thought I was an alien in a robot society and life was the matrix. Felt better but still had delusions I had an easy life and I believed every ■■■■ people told me about myself. Was just not there mentally.
Was influenced very easily.
Went to rehab classes for my arrest. This sucked because I was pissed at the world. I made good impressions but was very angry. Ok off meds sober though. Thinking I’m chosen one again eventually Jesus.
Thought this stuff for a while. thought my destiny was to be a famous rapper. And to become JEsus Christ. Also sometimes thought I was the devil or hitler. Thought I was black again.
Thought to become psychic. Read occult stuff. Thought I was almost psychic at one point. Did more psychedelics. ■■■■■■ myself up so bad with shrooms. Just finally was on abilify. Thought a lot of crazy stuff. Went to sober home. My delusions got better 8 months sober on meds. First time I ever did that. Only too. But anyways.
Then I started the naltrexone and slowly I get better. Slowly my delusions go away on my med combos. actually quite swiftly. I’m 28 now and have like no delusions and feel great the meds have been a miracle for me.
I thouğt cold showers for half an hour were going to help stop me dying so soon
And put paper towels in my tights so that i would be cleaner when i die or that my stomach had split off from my oesophagus
I thought i was married yo this 58 yr old aggressive vagrant on the ward (he thought i was his wife as well)
I could talk to rabits… flies communicated with me by spelling out letters (i was lying on the grass)
I thought i gave off sparkles
I thought i was damaging paintwork on walls with my laser eyes
I thought the grim reaper tapped me on the shoulder at the no way back from smoking too much tobacco
I thought i was knealt before and asked to give birth to the second coming of Christ
I thought my sex demon was out of control and that when i fired her out of the yin channels of my feet and onto the laps of other drivers and they woukd chuck her straight back out
I thought i was having an orgy with all the other patients and staff in the room on the ward
An axe murderer was following me in my car
I found a small village church and went to pray
I read the Cain and Abel story in the bible knowing i thougt that i had killed my sister
In order of appearance:
I thought I was Florence Nightingale reincarnated
I thought my car was poisoning me (due to olfactory hallucinations)
I thought I could read people’s minds
I thought I could control people’s minds
I thought people could read my mind
I thought people could speak to each other telepathically
I thought all males were secretly gay or bi
I thought my ex husband had hired snipers to kill me and our son
I thought serial killers were sneaking into my house.
I thought murderous burglars were sneaking into my apartment
I thought that these shadow men ( visual hallucinations), that were following me everywhere, were government agents sent to kill me.
I thought everyone in the whole world hated me.
I thought everyone in the whole world was evil, cruel and mean. Especially to me.
I still think the Veterans Administration is systematically killing off all the veterans in it’s health system.
That I had brain cancer and a black woman supernaturally did brain surgery and cured it, that pictures of People changed showing approval or disapproval, can’t remember a lot.
I was receiving images from dead soldiers on how to build a space craft, which I drew the parts that I needed to build in plans
We all came from Mars and we were about to destroy the planet and have no where to go. I was convinced by this for months
I had drug dealers trying to kill me and I was hallucinating interactions with them robbing me and threatening to murder me
The health system were trying to suppress my psychic abilities with medication due to a conspiracy with the government to silence people like me
I could communicate in my single place of existence with every living soul in the entire universe - alive or dead. It got very noisy
I could telepathically communicate with other people and read their filthy minds. This went on for ages.
I could see the spirits in other peoples radioactive aurora and they were able to insert themselves in peoples consciousnesses and reveal all their secrets to me so I could read them.
Spirits in other people
Magic
Hell
Heaven
Angel souls in animals
Angel souls in people
Other spiritual dimensions for me to experience
I don’t know what I mean by spirit exactly but that’s what it felt like even if its not
It’s hard to remember back all the delusions I had before I found Haldol (the medication that has worked for me).
I was involved in Tibetan Buddhism so a lot of the delusions were around Gurus, unfortunately.
I thought they were controlling me from distances
doing black magic on me.
Inserting themselves in my consciousness and making me do their will.
A lot of my delusions were religious nonsense, and I’m still fighting it.
I used to pace uncontrollably and I could pace around the block for hours without stopping.
At that time I was getting SSI and I living at a homeless shelter for the mentally ill. I would hang out all day and go get expensive drinks at starbucks with my government money. Of course I was paranoid everyone was out to get me, also paranoid that by taking SSI money every month I was being a huge drain on the system.
I still can’t shake all the religious stuff and I live with a fair amount of fear.
