My sza showed it's head again - paranoia and voices

Totally unexpected but I guess it was coming. I took up my writing again and sent off article to newspaper about dairy cows factory farming. Then this morning I emailed them again and told them to cancel publication. Because I was scared I’d make enemies who’d come kill me or my husband.

Then in mosque it blew out of proportion. I saw two young guys come into ladies section and sit behind screen. I developed a severe bout of paranoia as I believed these two men had guns and we’re part of a gang sent to shoot us. The imam was talking in his sermon about rapes and killings and it crossed my mind he was probably in the plot too. I was terrified and cried a lot to God. I almost got up and left before prayers began. Wtf is wrong with me???

On top of that Alien spoke to me saying I must get out and leave and when I didn’t he insulted me and said I’m crazy b***h.

God I’m so tired now!

So it seems my sza hasn’t left forever it was just dormant waiting for a time to strike me again. I feel the whole world is out to get me!!!

Oh no, sorry to hear things are going bad, have you spoken to your doctor about this?

I will when I see him. Want to make appt for end of this month or sooner maybe.

try and get one as soon as possible to prevent a relapse. Who is alien?

The man in my head who speaks to me and places his thoughts in my head. He’s an insulting evil voice.

Ok but you dont see him which is good. Perhaps all you need is a med change what meds are you on.

Amisulpride
Olanzapine
Lamotrigine
Been doing quite well on them.

That’s good hope the meds help many all you need is an adjustment.

Were you in remission before this?

Only for a few months but I did have some mild symptoms like thought insertion. Last year was in hospital three times and then from April I got better and more stable. From June I was well.
It’s all off and on

I hope you realize that nothing happened that day, right? If you know it is not real you can fight it from that solid rock.

What hospital did you go to?

At least you are lucky you made it to the mosque. Cuz everytime on my way there crazy things happens. Anyway, did you stop taking meds? Maybe that is the reason behind what is happening!!

At least you have insight, otherwise you could run away, go to the police, act violently as a defense etc

Well it’s good you are aware of this. Call your psychiatrist and talk to them about it. Maybe you need new medicine. I’ve been having similar problems (delusions and hallucinations). I’m starting on Invega Sustenna soon.

This topic was automatically closed 95 days after the last reply. New replies are no longer allowed.