So after some time of stability my psychosis shows up again today. I hope it’s not the start of another relapse. I’m not depressed at least but my mind was all over the place today.
I daydreamed instead of listening to my husband when he wanted to do a calculation.
I went to make coffee with water I put in flask only to find it was still in kettle and I had to re-boil it.
Then I got mad and hit my head with my hand and took flask and hit my head with it - and broke it. Smash! The inside came out all shattered. How stupid of me! I wanted to cry…
Then tonight Alien inserted thoughts again and if that wasn’t enough, I was paranoid, thinking evil spirits would infiltrate my mind. And gunmen would attack our mosque on Friday. Then I heard voices telepathically telling me to kill my husband. No!!! I love him!!! ■■■■■■■ Alien!!!
What the hell is going on with me?? I was doing so well now the sza returns.
Fortunately Alien backed off when I spoke to my supportive husband and read a book.
I hope I will be ok as I write my learners test tomorrow and I need that learners permit so bad as it expired last month and I need to drive.
Hoping I will be ok and Alien will not bother me again.