I don’t know if this happens to some of you or not but at times when I get slightly angry (focusing on something) I begin to go number 2. Its really embarrassing that I do this yet at the same time I don’t get why I do this, at times there has been blood also when I go to the restroom.
I’ve been trying to be honest with myself for the longest time. Which helps with sz, because at time our head is in the right place but the heart might be some where else. Today I had been depressed and I haven"t really been taking my meds either, thinking that I did not need them.
When going to school I tend to focus on the work, to the point of over thinking which kicks my sz. Not to mention making friends is a hard for me also. At this point after asking myself why do I do this I keep circling back to my past, in what happened when I was younger. Because in some truth is sz some part of our conflicted past still hunting us.
The older I get its like the saying that “most men are 8” is true to the meaning that somethings that happened then are still with us now. I guess I’m just trying to get to know the guy I see in the mirror everyday. So that I can just move on with my life.
As for what I’ve been doing if some of you wonder. I read, write in a journal, meditate, and some times follow through with medication. (I guess I should do this more), workout, and I try to engage in today, think, feel, act.
Welcome to the boards man. Every case of sz has its differences and quirks.
I believe I’m a thought broadcaster and have this constant hallucination of telepathy coming from people that seems really consistent and real. It sucks.
What’s you sz like?
Sounds like a real problem you got with going number 2. That would be a very annoying problem.
Welcome to the forum. First of all, please don’t skip your medicines. It’s for your health and we shouldn’t take risk on our well-being.
I think perhaps its because your mind just want to avoid the consequences of ending into a fight or argument. Does it have something to do with your past? Any sort of fight or arguments that you recall in the past that last longer impression on you? Maybe, talk to your doctor about this.
Have you ever talked to a doctor about the connection between being angry and stressed and your bowel movements? Some people have what is called irritable bowel movement and stress can trigger it. I don’t know if you experience any of the other symptoms or not. I am not suggesting that you do have it however discussing this with a doctor is probably a good idea.
I have lost interest in everything. I can just about manage to keep a diary to catalogue my irrational behaviour. I am a musician but it just feels like I am playing for the sake of it, like I am forcing it, so I don’t bother now. I look back at some of my earlier diary entries and they alarm me: I still have insight and I can see that I am truly developing a ‘split mind’.
BryanAshley, I’m sorry to hear that, but your right about that. I would say the judgmental paranoia, followed by the constant knocking noises, load or subtle.
P2r, I wont f a round with it this time. I tend to be non confrontational because of my anger when I get angry I tend to hurt myself. If other people are near by when I’m upset I’ll hurt them, i guess like a person with sz.
BarbieBF, thats a good idea I’ll look into it.
Padster, Hey friend if your a musicianist maybe taking a break to recharge when you get back into the swing of things. You can’t force art it just comes from within. I dont have any experience but I know friends of my own. At times when people tend to be invested into something to the point where our mind just needs to rest.
I think I’m seeing why my past follows me. But I’m not sure just yet.
Thats EXACTLY what I think! I recently quit self medicating with alcohol and my symptoms have gotten worse. Until I read this I actually believed my thoughts were so loud they were keeping my neighbors awake so I stopped reading books (my favorite pass time) which made my life so much worse as im currently in a hermit type stage.