I’m ugly man, really ugly.
I’m dumb to, fat as well.
People see me and think things about me. That i chose wrong right, that’s what they think.
But i’m actually an ex a student who was supernaturally tortured and forced to take drugs.
It sucks, you can’t explain what you have been through the past 18 years to people so they just think your an idiot and over eater basically.
That’s actually what i look like though, a drugged supernatural torture victim.
Go do something about it then
Never seen you, so can’t attest to that part of it, but you’re obviously not dumb 
Implausible, not really in the cards.
Everyone was dealt a hand, most of them losing hands.
To be honest i just want out.
I have evidence to make me think I’m ugly or have a bad personality. I just don’t worry about it. Just shrug it off man. I’m pretty sure there are things you are good at. Focus on those things.
I wasn’t talking about my abilities but that i’m confused for things much of the time.
Before my forced drugging i was gifted in several areas yes. Music, mathematics, memory, and of course my beloved cheffery.
What’s keeping you from cooking now? Or your guitar? Or doing it all on ice skates while doing equations in your head?
I just feel like ■■■■ all of the time.
And trauma, years of trauma, physical and emotional.
Well the two things I can think of is maybe you could try to improve your skills. Like try to take up a new language or try your hand a mathematics again. The other one is maybe there are things that can take your mind off it like playing video games or watching tv. Doesn’t really improve yourself but makes time pass by quicker and is enjoyable.
Anyway why do you feel bad? Are you one of the unlucky few that meds don’t work that well for. Recently I was shown a list of of like 88 different antipsychotics that they have. One of them could work for you.
Yeah, it sucks. I get it. Maybe try just one of them at a time. I’d go with cooking, but that’s just because I can’t cook anything that doesn’t come in a box with packets.
Yes I get your remark ha ha funny I will be losing ‘my’ hands this week
Few things:
People who judge others based on their appearance are miserable and stupid and you don’t need them anyway.
There is a lot of support groups online for overeating, they even have a meetings worldwide, maybe even where you live.
■■■■ people Pans. ■■■■ the demons. You stayed alive which means you can do it. You can do it Pan. You can get better. You got this far, you can go even better and further. Just get back that fight spirit you have somewhere in you. It is survival. We are born with that instinct.