i just sit in my own filth, all i’ve been doing this winter is smoking and eating. my place is already a mess again. and im telling myself i’ll wait until spring to clean it. i need to downsize my living situation i think and get rid of some stuff. and i have no motivation to get a job. i feel like as long as im diagnosed sza and on meds i will just continue to live on my benefits and not stress myself out.
i havent cooked a meal in over a month, just eating gas station food, and sometimes subway.