I find these to be the most troubling since they’re ongoing for me
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I have all of those. I’ve had them all for the past 12 years since I first got symptoms.
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How have you managed? It makes me so depressed
I don’t manage them. I’m always depressed ever since 12 years ago. I don’t know what to do to get better. Meds don’t help. I take the max dose of Bupropion and I still have negative symptoms.
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I have realized that my negs are partly a delusion. Once I get going I find I am not as tired and incapable as my illness made me believe I was. After I get moving I stay moving well enough and I feel a lot better.
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Motivation is super hard for me to sustain but when I do I don’t think anyone would even guess I had sza. I can maintain my household perfectly for short periods but then the negatives and depression creep back in
Right. A object in motion stays in motion. I have a hard time getting in motion or feeling anything 
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Same here. I never feel like doing anything.
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That’s why I don’t stop.
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I know we got off on the wrong foot the other day and I’m the one to blame. Please forgive me.
Regarding the topic at hand: my negatives used to be very crippling but they’ve subsided. Nobody - me included - knows how that happened. At one point I was so apathetic that I only left my bedroom if I had to use the loo. I used to sleep for 13 hours in one go. I couldn’t orgasm, couldn’t enjoy music or jokes or a good meal. My mind often went blank for hours on end. I was a zombie.
Doctors tend to downplay negative symptoms because current medication cannot address them. However they are sometimes mistaken for depression - which is usually treatable - or viceversa. For me antidepressants made zero difference anyway.
I wish I could explain in credible terms how my negatives improved. It didn’t happen overnight.
Around 2017-2018 I went through a couple relapses due to messing with my treatment plan. During psychosis I tend to become more energetic. After the dust settled I realized I could once again do stuff - take a shower, go on walks, have short conversations, even smile at jokes.
I also had anger outbursts, I cried in my sleep, I cursed and insulted people who didn’t deserve it. Irrational behavior, both on and off meds. I also prayed a lot, out of despair more than faith.
Nowadays my negatives are much better, although still an issue. I’m not a brave man. I’m a coward. I wish all problems went away without me lifting a finger…
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Your brave @Andrey . Brave to share your story and your journey. And that helps others. Your doing great man.
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Thanks Level!
Not sure my words really touch hearts or move mountains, but I have this need to share. I think whenever there’s hope or something good happened, it must be made known to others.
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Your words have motivated me before. 
Cheers
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