This is a good lesson. I live in a big city and I live close to the downtown area. We have a lot of homeless or indigent people around where I live and I try to give them a couple of bucks whenever I can. But when I walk away I feel like I didn’t do the right thing or I wasn’t nice enough or I was a phony or I had ulterior motives. NONE of these things are true. And it just makes me mess with my own mind.
So from now on I will stop putting myself down for absolutely no reason and when I see the homeless trudging down the street in the rain with no warm place to welcome them, I will give them a few bucks look them in the eye and wish them good luck and leave it at that. No more unnecessary mind trips to myself.
By the way, I am certainly no saint by a long shot. Just ask the cowardly people in cars who think they can take advantage of me but I turn the tables on them on a daily basis and scare them for their cowardly attacks. All bets are off when they try to trick me. Believe me when I say that I do not have a death wish and I try to go about my daily business safely and carefully.
But anyways, I have a soft spot in my heart for the down and out people and helping the less fortunate makes me feel good and it is the moral thing to do.