there’s so much improvement that sometimes I feel back to my “old” self of college years. but then come all the bitter thoughts and I wonder is this ptsd or is it still sz? is it part of sz to look back on your life and be bitter bitter b itter or is this something that is just a sad part of me? or ptsd?
judy
I think lots of people look back and can get bitter at the bad parts that stick out.
With time the old wounds can heal and you can tend to remember and relive the better parts and forget the bad.
I don’t think we’ll ever be our old selves. But we can get stronger and better at handling the hard parts.
I don’t know.
What I’m real sure about tho is the more I talk and think about negative crap in the past, the less it helps me.
It brings everything back as if it happened yesterday, no good.
I haVe been going throo sum nonsensical thunKin today ,
and all I wanna do is go to the closest bar and get drunk out of my mynde …
but not gonna happen ,
I wrecked a car and haven’t had one for I don’t know how long n e mo …
and each day since ive been on meds ,
each dai I wake up feels lyke the first day of my lyfe …