Schizoaffective or schizophrenia or bipolar… whatever it is I have… I don’t feel good about having these labels on me. It makes me feel less of a person.
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You are more than your diagnosis. We’re all human beings. But I understand the self stigma.
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You’re being too hard on yourself and you know it. You are a good soul who got unlucky health-wise, but look at the positives. Your physical health is ok, you’ve got family and a boyfriend, you have talent for drawing mandalas and elephants etc. and soon you’ll find a suitable part-time I’m positive.
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I hope I do find a job soon. It’s tough right now. And the more I am out of work, the less confident I become. But I am not giving up hope.
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This illness made me feel and believe I was god.
More than a person.
It’s better to be human.
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that’s what I’m struggling with too. The self stigma. Everytime I think I have defeated it, it comes back to haunt me.
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The label doesn’t bother me much but what bothers me are the sz symptoms I currently have.
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I feel the same way.
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I used to cut myself down all the time like calling myself a “freak” or “loser”…this was very hurtful to my self esteem and once I finally accepted the diagnosis I was much better off sharing how I felt being sz. I am open about it now with friends and family and they support me…I feel loved is what I’m getting at…it’s kind of about self love and kind of about acceptance…good luck.
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Take care. Be kind to yourself. You deserve this. I can only imagine what you’ve been through and are going through. I think with time things can heal. I just think of being close to taking my life on numerous occasions because of the agony of my delusions, hallucinations etc. And its just amazing to acknowledge there are different sides to the personal pain, shame and agony. Its good when you can remind yourself that. At one point i met someone completely opposite to me. Who really was full of self love. And it made me examine what self compassion really can be. It is attainable. It takes time and patience with yourself. I think the labels can slide away off your back given time. But it’s how much weight you give others over you too. Its hard to say because i understand no two person is alike. I just know that i used to self harm and had eatings disorders etc and now i’m looking after myself in a different way. I at least dress now, i wash and dont cut, i dont cut my hair off etc. Because i think i deserve more. Its the same with labels. You might see it, hear it etc in your name. But that’s not your name. If you compartmentalise from the name of disorder maybe that will help you. You are so much more than the frame of reference you’ve been given. Sorry if this sounds over-the-top. I just think you must be an amazing person. To be troubled but you keep fighting. Which you clearly are. As you are still here.
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I never really let sz affect my selfesteem but i did get angry over the ways people treat you if they can claim any superiority over you for any reason. People are that petty that any slight increase they can get by talking down to you or diminishing you or correcting you etc they will take.
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You are a good person, and deserve self love you are a person who understands more than what most do! You are talented. You are better and more of a person than you think and probably more than most people you know in rl simply because you know feelings so we’ll and feel them often! Be good to yourself! You deserve it
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I think its great that you are able to be open about your SZ.
I think its helpful.
It’s one thing less you have to deal with about this illness.
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@anon25873142 I don’t like the current labels —- I don’t socialize in the outside world but I don’t want to divulge my diagnosis (which is ■■■■■■ up) publicly because of the stigma. While people who have other ■■■■■■ up illnesses can be free and open and receive support. Edit: I realize its ■■■■■■ up comparing illnesses. But I do feel if I got anything else, people would be lining up to help and understand it. While SZ - they just think they already know what it means when they are completely ignorant of it.
No one wants to change their point of view on the word Schizo and Schizophrenia. Its engrained into their heads that we’re dangerous.
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