He won’t let me come off depot, he says it will be terrible if i do and he might move out if i went through with it. He says to trust him with this and explained several times to me why i must stay on the depot
Ive been having thoughts a lot about coming off because of anhedonia which is basically numbed emotions plus im in bad shape overweight and lead a mostly sedentary life because i lack motivation to do anything. I do force myself to go outside every few days, just mainly to keep things as normal as possible and to please him. And Sometimes i get so fed up i consider ending it but haven’t had those thoughts for a month. I just wish these meds didn’t contribute to obesity and numbness.
I still have lots of symptoms on Clopixol, it doesn’t stop my paranoia and anxiety either.
I love him and want him to stay and he might be right, he might be wrong but i can’t risk losing him.
You could consult your psychiatrist for a medication that has fewer side effects
Try different ap 
I’ve tried 6
They all gave me side effects like sleeping all day or high prolactin or suicidal ideation
This clopixol is the better of the 6 ive tried
Have you tried some of newer ones like vraylar.
Are there newer APs that come as depot injections you can try?
No i haven’t tried that . I will have to ask my doctor, its such a balancing act because i can be such a moody cow, or all over place on or off meds
I haven’t been off them in 5 years and i ended up in hospital twice in 6 months i was off them
Hope everything works for you, it not easy switching… 
Thankyou big hugs for your support!
Thankyou @LilyoftheValley i hope your feeling better
And
@anon49614373 hope your feeling ok with your depressed other day
Sometimes its good to write things here, it clears my head
Take care everyone!
He’s just looking out for both your self interests.
Yeah trust your doctor and your husband @anon29983254
I feel you there. I am on depot as well, and makes you go totaly numb, nu feelings at all, no expression, no joy no sadness, just bones and meat with two eyes. I feel like sitting in bed all day long. But what hurts the most is the lack of feelings and lack of movement.
Yes same here. Its funny cos my mum said the other day i should go to the beach because its good to see the sea. Without emotions not much feeling it seems almost not worth doing. I have to really push myself to do things. I keep convincing myself that I’ll be better off meds and then hubby convinces me otherwise. I just keep going, can’t give up must keep trying. I hope you feel better soon too, its a tough journey we all go through
Yes it is tought. Depots can be very challenging and very distruptive alltogether. I get some feelings after 3 weeks on depot before it runs out most of it’s effect. But energy wise it is distructive. My energy went down so much. I am down to 10% i guess. I know why you want to stop them. I wanna stop them too, but are consequences if u do so. I wish I could tell you something to confort you
, but I know there’s no much to say. I know will not last forever and it is hard for anyone to understand whom was not on depots.
I am sure there are other neuroleptics with similar symptoms.
@Davincii Im sorry your in the same boat as it were
If you ever want to chat, you are welcome to pm or see you around 
i hope things improve for both of us, i know what you mean, 3 weeks into it and its wearing off i get more enthusiastic about everything and then it all starts again when i have it.
Yes , that’s like a week to enjoy in a month. Next week Ihave to go for the injection and now I kinda enjoy the time. I must say everytime I go for the injection I get affraid and scared. Really really scared. I guess you have the same feeling.
Yes i have the same dread
I agree with your husband stay on meds