I feel that men and women are coming to harm me . They are watching me at all times. Sometime I speak to them and they respond in negative ways. It causes me more pain then good. They can read my mind and know my thoughts.
My mind is pretty flaccid & hallow. There’s not much happening & I’m rarely embarassed by my own thoughts. If these beings are “real”, then I have no clue what they are hearing or seeing in my reality. I have no clue what I look like to them or what they can hear or see happening inside of my mind, but I am quite able to see an artistic form of them. One female in particular continues to protect me and has even asked me out on dates & such. I have no idea what to do in those situations.
Most of the time, I actually feel like my mind is being used as a tool to help correct or fine tune other people’s conscience. In the end, if we live forever, I’m sure some solid answers will tunnel forth. Either way, I feel that being SZ can be looked at as an honor, especially if there is something positive happening b/c of our enduring through these times.
@paranoid, that sounds like me when I was unmedicated.