Ouch. Now my brain starts to make trip wires again. I don’t think I have schizophrenia. I was misdiagnosed. I’m not bipolar either. Never manic. I have been ok for 2 years. I want to stop my medication. STOP! How can I stop these thoughts? I was so ill when I was hospitalized. Now my brain starts to fight with me again. I don’t have time with this. I can’t afford to lose everything again.
You need to speak to your doc about this, and maybe try a drop in the mg of medicine depending on what they say, you don’t want to just stop altogether! Best wishes 
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My pdoc said two weeks ago “We have tried lower doses, that did not work out. You will need to stay on this dose for now.”
I want to stop the thoughts coming. The thoughts about being well and misdiagnosed. I was so ill so ill 7 years ago. In a horrible shape. But every now and then I get these thoughts that I am ok. I’m just a fake. I’m not actually ill.
Voices keep me on track though. The laugh and tell me “you’re schizo”. Shall I believe my voices or my brain? Maybe believe my pdoc?
I feel disorganized. Stressed out. I have nothing to be stressed out about. Maybe I’m “catching” another psychosis? I don’t have time for that. I don’t want to lose everything I have. I did once already. It took me 5 years to build up my life again.
How to stop having fears?
the more anxious you become about this, the more likely you will head towards it! Take time for yourself and do things you enjoy! And deffo speak to your pdoc!
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You might be entering a phase to where your symptoms act up again for a while 
Got an appointment a month away. Well, there is always the crisis team. If things go out of hand.
You’re fighting those thoughts right now. Don’t give up. I strongly suggest journaling so you can keep track of your progress and notice patterns when you’re ill so you can recognize it more clearly.
I am also fighting my brain right now, in a somewhat different way.
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I’ll try to keep a journal. I’ve tried many times. Then I get paranoid and delete it or burn it depending on where I wrote it.
Yikes. Well it can be very helpful. Good luck…keep posting on here so you can get confirmation of reality…
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I have been going through this recently too, I’ve never known how much willpower it takes to stay on medication until recently, I’m fighting with myself too, saying I know I’m ill and need these meds, but I just don’t believe it right now if I am honest. But I’m being supervised taking my medication by my mum as Im being open.
I find offloading how you feel is best, the more you hide it the worse and more appealing it gets. Try talking to someone you trust, maybe the more you’re talk about it the less powerful those thoughts will be.
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