Here it’s how all began, how the weird stuff began to happen: I was 12 years old and somehow my computer began to show signs of hacking, I ignored it. Then I’m 18 years old and I was experiencing my first psychotic break, it was because of the weird stuff happening in my computer, like stuff being written in it’s own and for some reason my computer always turned off when I was in the most critical moments, like the most terrifying part of a horror movie or when I win in a videogame, and a news about mind reading machine also played a major role in it, it was 2014, I could recover but the computer stuff just keeps happening so I wasn’t fully recovered. Then in 2018 I just realized I was hacked by someone, I mean, when I wrote insults in my PC someone called my phone very angry, telling me what was my problem?. Now in 2019 my mom hide my medication for some reason, and I could clearly see it, she did it in front of me which provoked me to seek help with the police, and the police for some reason didn’t want to hear me, they yelled at me and I decided to seek help with the police station of another city, there no one believed me too and I was beaten and hospitalized, after that I see a very weird website called “the good judgment” which alarmed me a lot, it was full of what I believed were references to my life, then I decided to bring my phone to the police station, I said: “hey, there’s people throwing me coins in the street, you can see that with the municipal cameras” they said I needed to bring a witness, then I came with my phone showing a video about Donald Trump And the good judgment stuff, the police took my medication and asked me to come with my family which I did, then I was hospitalized again, there in the mental asylum was a lot of references to religious stuff written in the walls, I could get out of there, and then my mom began to ask me very weird stuff like :“is the king of Spain the ruler of this country?” Then my aunt began to make weird questions, and very obvious questions too which alarmed me a lot more, these questions began to make trouble in my memory because I didn’t know what was happening and my mom told me I was going crazy again, again? But how? I’m taking my medication as prescribed! I’m fine, why is this happening? She recognized the whole thing and then she denied it. I didn’t ask my aunt about it, I was exhausted… I seek help in a synagogue which was closed and then I asked people to find a police station, they began to make contradictory stuff, like telling me it’s on the right side of the street while showing me with their hands the left side of the street which caused me more trouble 
what do you think about this, is this… Normal?
Why me? What have I done to deserve this 
What you describe is pretty common. It’s not usual for someone with paranoid delusions. I wish there was an easy answer but ultimately it’s a brain processing information all wrong. I know that is a poor description but it really is the basics of what is going on.
Stay on the meds. They should help you get to a point where these instances don’t seem so real anymore. I know. I had birds following me fitted with electronic devices. I truly believed that whereas now I recognize it wasn’t really what others saw of reality. I was delusional at the time. Best answer!
Yes your perception of reality is normal for someone living with paranoid schizophrenia. With schizophrenia you cannot tell the difference between what is real and what is a delusion or hallucination. Take your meds every day and over time your delusions and hallucinations should fade away. As that happens you will gradually gain insight into your memories and be able to sort out what was real and what was not. Remember … Take your meds and have faith you will get better and you will get better.
I lived similar real delusions in australia. İt was like every natural events has a meaning about my life and my thoughts.finally i was relapse and start to treatment. Since then i have no delusions.but as i remember even dumbest delusions was so real.
Delusional thinking sucks!!! Oh God I remember those days, I was a basket case worrying over things a normal person doesn’t think twice about. My delusions ranged from completely out there to having truth in it still to this day. My thinking was predominately on spiritual things so there was still a truth tucked into my delusions. The Bible says the Shepard will leave the rest of the flock just to go out and find that lost sheep. I knew somewhere inside myself that I was going to be okay. My delusional thinking and way of interpreting life around me showed me that even in a full blown psychosis, I was still never lost. Before I started taking medication I had the FULL shebang: visual hallucinations in the form of images, auditory hallucinations, olfactory hallucinations, gustatory, and terrifying tactile hallucinations. I was never crazy enough to believe there was nothing wrong with me. I knew something was seriously wrong. My way of thinking is, if there is a problem there is a solution. I went to a crisis center to get stabilized on medication and slowly but surely I came out of the delusional thinking I was plagued with. It will go away. Don’t allow negative thinking to take your hope away! Faith in a Higher Power fixing your situation, healing your mind of delusional thoughts, making the voices stop doing whatever they gave been doing to you, and getting yourself and your life back is so important. Keep your head up, and DISMISS negative thoughts.
Now that’s not all, my clock began to work badly for first time when I was in that police station and there were only 30 minutes left to take my meds, too much coincidence I guess?
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