I usually try my hardest at jobs but I’ve done stupid things at certain jobs and got fired as a result. I just want to point out that while I’ve got fired a lot I’ve just jumped back in the saddle and got new jobs.
Getting fired isn’t the end of the world. It doesn’t define you, it does not mean that you’re a hopeless failure who will never be able to work another job again. It’s a setback that can be remedied. I’m not saying finding a job is easy, but everything that’s worthwhile takes effort. Some people fail at something and because of that one incident, they look at it as if they’re future will be a never-ending series of failures. Hey, I’m guilty of it too but you don’t have to think that way.
But yeah, jobs don’t always just fall into your lap. Sometimes they do. I’ve had easy times getting jobs and hard times. I guess I’m just rambling here. In my thirty-odd jobs I’ve had in my life, I’ve gotten away with stuff you wouldn’t believe. I’ve loafed, I’ve called in sick once a week for half a year and they didn’t fire me. I’ve had jobs where I had big projects to do and I didn’t feel like doing them so I just decided on my own to not do it and my boss never said a word.
What I’m trying to show here is that no one is a perfect employee, and that at certain jobs there is leeway and you can make mistakes and do really stupid stuff and you won’t get fired. I’m trying to take the pressure and worry off of your mind. Don’t think jobs are life and death. You don’t have to be perfect. I guess I’m saying that there’s room for error at jobs. Heck, I’ve seen the worst employees at jobs who were lazy and didn’t care about their jobs but they didn’t get fired. The only perfect person in the Universe is God and even he messes up everyday of his life. You don’t know until you try.
I feel like you wrote this specifically for me to read. I work three days a week at the moment after taking seven months off last year, my employer kept my job open for me and they are now very accommodating with having me back at work. This week I have a review of my return to work plan with my boss and an occupational therapist. I feel very uncomfortable at these meetings because I don’t know what is expected of me.
I had Monday off work this week because I have been having a very difficult time with seeing and feeling things and I have been seeing swarms of rats at my feet while I am at work. I slept for three hours Sunday night and knew Monday would be bad at work on so little sleep. I was scared to call in sick because I think I will get fired, but my boss was understanding. They have been showing a great amount of support and compassion for me since I went off work last year. I am very lucky.
But I also agree, if I get fired then I get fired. It isn’t the worst thing in the world. I have been fired from a job before and it was a blessing in disguise.
Tonight I see my psychiatrist to talk about all my things and pieces. He will help.
Thank you for talking about work. I don’t know you at all but there is something very familiar about you, your writing reminds me of my very dear friend.
I hope i don’t get fired, lately i can’t stay focused, my shift is at nights at a hotel and it’s the off season so i had to do maintenance on the rooms alone, that’s when things got bad, now i sit in the shop a lot and draw, sometimes i take my canvas and paint, because i am the only maintenance worker at night, it is isolating, it’s like the Shining most nights, the rooms have spirits in them, and i know people may doubt that but they are there and that’s been the problem, plus they keep putting more and more cameras in the hotel so the managers can be voyeurs and watch everyone on their laptops at their homes, if i lose my job, it would be a great difficulty for us
I’m working with a vocational counselor but we haven’t managed to meet since our first meeting that took place with the guy on the couch snoring up a storm in the living room heh heh.
I pretty much was diagnosed due to unemployment in my early 20’s. I’ve had a lot of jobs but the majority of them were in my teens. I had a bad habit of just not showing up one day and never coming back. Jobs were easy to get back then until my late teens when they started asking about periods of unemployment, which was easy to get around at 18. I pretty much dug a hole for myself walking away from jobs.
One of the p[roblems other than how messed up I was and all the anxiety I dealt with was that I really didn’t value money as much as most people. At that age as long as I could manage to buy a pack of cigarettes for the day I was good, friends would gas up my beat up old mini van and as long as we put together enough cash for a party most weekends things were good.
Really, the only pressure I remember for me to get a job was from my girlfriend when she got sick of being the only employed half of our relationship. I just didn’t value money, still don’t, when I had a wallet stuffed with bills I was too generous with it, I’d throw you a 20 just for being you, buy you a pack of cigarettes to make up for being an A-hole most of the time.
Thing is, I’m not some lazy lay about, I spent a year and a half on a therapeutic farm community and worked more than even expected of me for no pay, just good food and great company, and I absolutely loved it despite being out of my mind. So, yeah I’m probably looking into another volunteer position through this voc counselor. I’m not competitive in the least, I’[ve never valued money, even and especially when I’ve had it and job interviews terrify me.
But hey maybe someday in my old age I’ll stumble across some good hard proof that I did actually do something with my life eh?
