I’m either having intrusive thoughts or murderous thoughts about hurting others. My husband just gave me atavan to calm me down. I don’t have any plans, but I know the people I want to hurt. I’ve always had these thoughts since I was a child. I used to act out, but now that I’m an adult I can keep myself calm enough not to go through with it. I don’t want to admit myself. I feel like they’ll just put me back on Invega. It gave me akathesia, so I can’t have it. Have any of you ever experienced this?
youre gonna be okay @Cici2 psychosis is really hard at times but theres solutions and it gets better. i do think you should talk to your doctor about meds. There are a number of medications that do different things in the brain changing, as i understand, mainly dopamine and serotonin. It sounds like your serotonin is low. I was on invega before and i didnt like it either, because i think that it further lowers serotonin. Abilify however and drugs like that raise serotonin and they may be a God-send. I did have akathesia with invega
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I really hope my pdoc can find me a good med. This is tortuous.
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trust me i know how you feel! Honestly when i began abilify the thought that came to my head was…i honestly feel happy for the first time in my life, like id been depressed for years and finally i felt better
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you sound like youre experiencing extreme depression
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I may be. I haven’t had my cymbalta dosage increased in a while.
are you from america? the thing is a lot of good weather is on the way so your serotonin will rise naturally…its just the end of the winter blues. Good times are coming but i think you should still talk to your doctor as well about abilify-type antipsychotics as well
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see " Experts believe that Cymbalta blocks the reuptake of serotonin" which would raise it…serotonin is the brain chemical responsible for emotional stability
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Yes, I’m in America. I never thought of that before. I’m glad spring is here.
yea, finally get to get outside and be active
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I think a lot of us have. I know I have fantasized about beating the crap out of someone who I was intensely angry at. There is no crime in thinking these things, but if you feel compelled to act on these impulses you might want to see about a hospitalization and med. change.
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I think I’ll see if I can get seen tomorrow.
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I used to long, long ago but not a lot. It always scared me because I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I don’t like scaring anybody, but I do it occasionally.
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awesome its good to take care of yourself, your wellbeing is worth it.
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Thank you for responding to my distress. It feels nice to be heard and understood.
trust me ive been in a similar situation. This winter i was more depressed than ive ever been. a few times i tried leaving my house and i was so depressed i literaly walked down the street and had to turn back because it was too much to bear 
i couldnt believe it. i’d never been like that before. definately a dark time
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you gotta find some way to express yourself too, its really good you chose to talk about your feelings
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Thanks. Yeah it was tough but I figured hey it’s worth a shot. Talking about it and my atavan seem to be helping a lot right now.
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yea atavan helped me sleep a lot of the time when i was in the hospital, singing my favourit songs at the top of my lungs also helps me blow off steam XD
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That’s a good one. I love singing. What’s your favorite music?
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