The problem with seeing conspiracies on the internet is two fold, one is the sample of people, which makes networking consensus hard to interpret, and the other is the amount of anonymity which leads to unwarranted speculation. I keep seeing many synchronicities from which I build up consciousness of conspiracies centring on people using me. It is a massive ego trip with many unknowns and overwhelms me leading to relapse. I just can’t seem to interact on the computer for very long without it happening. I don’t know what to do to move away from such perceptions 
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I’m trying to get a handle on my delusions which are flaring up mildly at the moment and sometimes extremely. They are about moving to the top. They are a displacement of my anxiety over my status in society owing to my condition. I keep thinking posters on forums are government agents and that by interacting with them I can move to the top of government. Why I would want to do that, I don’t know. It is sad.
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It is sometimes best to just avoid conspiracy sites. People can make some really outlandish ideas seem plausible to those of us predisposed to believe them.
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On the internet, people with shared thoughts can form sites and talk about their interests…even conspiracy theorists.
Then you have a group of like-minded people in a bubble talking to each other and reinforcing each other’s opinions…which can lead you to misconstrue information, to believe fiction as fact, that every word spoken on that site is Gospel because every poster on that forum agrees with it…etc…
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I feel your pain, I was into conspiracy theory long before I got schizophrenia. I could handle it fine back then maybe because it’s just in my nature to be curious. Going down the rabbit hole now however causes all kinds of confusion. One thought leads to another and before you know I’m lost in a sea of self destructive behavior. Lately I’ve been doing a ton of research into all kinds of fringy stuff and I feel like I’m losing grip on reality. I try to share it with people I trust and people i think can handle it. My cousin just laughs and my brother mostly ignores it, he says that sometimes ignorance is bliss… and sometimes i think he is right! I believe information is powerful but can be difficult to.process given our condition. Try not to get to caught up in it and take breaks. The world is not all bad, keep your head up and keep moving forward.
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Yeah I get conspericieies in my head that the illuminati controls the world with my mind and nothing is real it really sucks I also get coinicidents like crazy every where all the time. Makes me think fallen Angel’s are messing with me and all the weird feelings that I get with the voices saying that its eternal pain that they are putting inside me wen I die
So I briefly went back to thinking that posters on forums were government intelligence workers, it didn’t help that I actually did write to someone who genuinely is the son of an NSA worker and grandson of a CIA worker. He is a public figure to some extent though has moved to the fringes of public society and deals with conspiracies which he claims to have inside knowledge about, something which his background gives credibility to, or not, depending on how you see it.
My belief in the posters being government intelligence workers all seems so real and coherent when I’m believing it, and once again I wonder if I am not manifesting the reality of things with my thoughts and desires.
It is however a reality which I cannot deal with for very long without becoming really dysfunctional, and the sooner I snap out of it the better.
I should really stay away from the guy I wrote to, as I think getting drawn into his world would exacerbate my mental health problems.
I’m back to reality now, but still feeling drawn towards exploring conspiracies. It is a combination of a desire to know what is really going on and doubting everything. It is a desire to live in an exciting fantasy world of my own making.
I missed my routine completely today, largely owing to the need to catch up on sleep. At least I’m not delusional now.
Thank you.
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So I’m back to thinking some posters are paid government workers again. This after several nights without sleep. Why do I care anyway?
It’s paranoia, maybe you need meds adjusted.
@Gagis I have this belief sometimes too. It was one of the first things I posted here this year if you look at my history. What leads you to your belief? As for mine, I know that the government is conducting a campaign of psychological torture against me as some form of warfare against civilians.
Hi @anongoodnurse, in reality I don’t know who the government is, it is some strange projection of mine of an oppressive force that I connect to what I see on the news. It is a delusion. We make our own world, there is no government except ourselves.
It’s usually not talk about You
Not everybody is affected
It is the story no one wants to hear or know
Many times personal accounts.
We’ve always had to fight for the truth
Especially for human rights.
@Daze, not sure what you are trying to say, yes conflict is a part of life, we have always had to fight for the truth as you say, but in the end we are fighting ourselves in my opinion.
It’s called such–‘conspiracy theory’
By those who don’t think differently.