and I did. It is difficult to combat her feelings. It was all about the process of clinging.
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i don’t think my mother thought i would fail. I was okay until i was about 21.
This is relatable. Recently my mom expressed concerns that I wouldn’t be able to handle a job and two classes. She was right as I’m currently taking time off work to focus on school. I don’t even know if I can go back to work when my leave is over and not fail my classes. It’s all very disheartening.
I feel for you Chordy and I’m sorry you’re going through this.
Failing is awesome. Means you’re learning.
Not if you’re punished about it.
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Did you have a good relationship with your mother?
I just reframe those experiences now. If I’m worried about a problem in the present, I remind myself of the problems I have overcome in the past. Helps me get past momentary anxiety and accomplish things.
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I only had something like a 2.6 or 2.8 grade point average when I graduated highschool, barely admissible for college. I dropped out of college instead of being flunked, and went to work full-time when I was 19, December 1978. I was fairly successful before I came down with Sz.
No. Her fears blew my mind.
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Is she still alive? Were you able to forgive her?
No. She died. I couldn’t forgive her. She had asked me to once, but my face froze. Because I wasn’t thinking about it. It was, like forgive you for what? Later she loudly hated me for having sz.
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Do you hear her voice now? I hear the voices of dead relatives btw.
No, I don’t hear her voice, but I feel her influence.
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Have you spoken about her with a therapist? Maybe a professional can help you with your trauma. By the amount you post about her it seems to be something that needs attention.
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damage is damage. I just have to live with it.
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