More Dream Symbolism

Sorry if I post a lot of dream stuff, it’s a form of therapy I’ve used for myself for ages now. After years of being my own therapist I’ve come up with some more unique strategies for myself :slight_smile:

Anyhow first the dream last night. I was lying in bed in my old house and had just woken up. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a older looking, very messy looking man in my window, watching me. I was immediately creeped out. Without alerting him that I was awake I carefully slid out my phone and was about to call my mom when I realized maybe I liked the attention. So I put my phone down. But then he climbed down from the window and I knew he had broken into the house.

I ran downstairs and told everyone there (there were neighbors over) to get out because there was a dangerous man in the house and I didn’t want them to get hurt. I called the police who told me he had escaped from a mental asylum, and they were already outside undercover. The man saw me calling the police and got very angry. I told the police this and they sent backup. They told me to get him to the front yard so they could get a shot on him.

When I went to the dining room I saw him aiming a gun at my little sisters. He told me he didn’t want to be violent, but I told on him so I asked for this. He told me I had to come with him willingly or he’d kill everyone. I agreed and walked towards him. I slapped the gun away but he didn’t drop it, he just laughed and said he was expecting that, but while he was laughing I swiped the gun from him and ran away. He chased me outside trying to get it back, then I threw it far away. He chased after it and the police got him.

He got put away, but not for long. He came back out and started stalking me. I was upset by it and told him that if he was going to follow me he should be open about it and stop hiding. So he did and then after we talked I decided I couldn’t hate him because he was mentally ill. Aside from being obsessed with me and violent when angry, he was very goofy and sweet. He came with me everywhere like a puppy. I went to the mall with my friend and him and we went through a haunted house that was a lot of fun. One of the workers there asked if the guy was my dad or uncle and when I said no he asked how we knew each other. My stalker told the man he’d known me for a very long time. I thought it was just his illness talking, but then he pulled out a picture of my 5 year old self and my parents walking in the city! He had been stalking me for YEARS and I hadn’t even known!! I was very disturbed and then I woke up.

Ok, now for the interpretation. The stalker represents my own issues with psychosis. I’ve had them my entire life. But I never became aware of them until I was 15 or 16. (At that age, I lived in my old house. Thus I “woke up” to realize my psychosis in that house, just like in the dream. I was surprised to find he had been stalking me for so many years) Also, my stalker had obviously just been content watching me for all those years until I grew older and he became sexually attracted to me. This signifies a lot of the sexual themes and issues that began to pervade my psychosis as I grew older. When I was tempted to play along, it mirrored how sometimes I have into my psychosis and played along with my delusions and paranoia.

When I told everyone to leave the house so I could deal with the man myself, it shows how I have always dealed with my issues myself. He was violently opposed to anyone “telling on him” just like how I abhorred the thought of telling anyone about those issues. I called the police in my dream, signifying my self-discipline and fighting, logical self, however my “mental authorities” aren’t perfect, so the stalker (my issues) always return, even if I can lock them away briefly.

When I began to analyze my issues they became less frightening. I understood them more. This my relationship with the stalker improved. Some of my psychosis was even fun and beneficial (haunted house, friends, etc. Represent my more exciting delusions and friendly helper voices). But in the end it all still disturbs and confuses me.

That’s what I got out of it!