I’ve started to rapid cycle, My SzA has oscillates between Sz and Bipolar. I’m thinking of getting myself admitted to hospital today. My pDoc is out of ideas about what medications I can take.
When I saw him yesterday he said - ‘just wait and see’, I think I make it look less severe to him than it really is. Whenever I’m in hospital he is shocked by my symptoms, but I have trouble disclosing to him when I see him as an outpatient.
I’m afraid of rapid cyclic, I find it more distressing than the delusions and hallucinations. Probably because I get irritable mania and mixed states and that just sucks. Plus I really loose insight.
I’m on Lamotrogine and Abilify. Anybody know what else works for this? Should I go to hospital?
I’m not sure but, but I think you are happy enough to not have to go to the hospital. If you want to go ahead a go to the hospital. Do you don’t like going to the hospital?
For a week I was extremely depressed, started out suicidal, then got hypersomnia - like 18hrs sleep a day, then wouldn’t talk to anyone or get out of bed - no thoughts at all. Then over a day my mood lifted and yesterday started getting manic. Racing thoughts, can’t stop babbling - mood jumping between elation and irritability
I really really hate the hospital. It takes a lot to make me want to go there. I’m thinking about it because I think I’m getting worse and last time this happened to me it was disastrous.
You need to stop responding to moods. Yes need to make sure your actions, thoughts etc not depend on your mood. Supplements which can help in this situation include DMG, NAC etc.
Plus also suspect I may be a visitor from an alternate universe. Last week I thought I didn’t exist properly, but maybe that’s because I’m from somewhere else.
btw - I’m sure this is a delusion
Not let that emotion control you. The fact is you can do or not do even if the emotions there or not. When get angry, irritable simply focus on your actions, what you say etc remain silent, not focus on it and instantly flee from that situation. After some time it get settled.
I was “rapid cycling” when i was young - i am 50 years old now - i got better, but i am still having these mood swings,
Lithium messed up my metabolism, so take care and consider it thoroughly if the Pdoc ask you to take Lithium for your rapid cycling. It might help, but it’s quite toxic.
My mood swings are very affected by my way of living, and the older i get, the more distance to my mood swings i get.
My “lows” don touch me that much anymore, and when hypomanic, i just enjoy the thrill.
I have sza and rapid cycle too. I get severe depression and mild hypomania but most of time it’s depression and mixed episodes. I get this feeling like I’m wanting to dance and cut at same time, laugh, cry, scream. It really is hectic.
I’m on Lamotrigine too (150mg) as well as olanzapine and amisulpride
Been to hospital many times for either depression or self harm or mixed episodes and hearing voices.
Should you go? It depends on how unsafe you feel. If you in danger of cutting or feeling suicidal then go. Or if you can’t look after yourself or loved ones. But if your symptoms manageable with meds and calling pdoc then it may not be necessary to go.
