I feel like I’m stupid sometimes I ■■■■■■ up a lot at school especially before I got on meds I didn’t get my full grade 12 I was having episodes throughout all elementary and middle school I ended up doing a lot of stupid ■■■■ especially when I was having manic episodes I wish I was a better person back then but I had such serious episodes that ■■■■■■ with my head and then when I was in high school the first year I had the worst episode of my life and ended up in the psych ward and after that I was in special needs school
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Going to college/university doesn’t mean anyone is smarter, there are a lot of clowns walking about with degrees. You might be being hard on yourself without justification…
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Idk I was raised to work get a job and get a education but my mental illness f*cked it up badly I have major self esteem issues my parents understand now that I’m disabled and if I get too stressed I crumble sadly I wish I was a successful person
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I went to college but struggled throughout. I used to feel guilty for not being able to get better grades…
Some people fall ill earlier, I was ok until college but in your case it sounds like issues started during middle school.
I hope you don’t blame yourself for acting up back then. It wasn’t your fault.
I found working harder than studying in university.
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I do sometimes wonder I ended up being manic a lot and did ■■■■ but i wonder what’s me and what was my illnesses honestly I think it’s live and learn however the amount of fist fighting I did while I was being prescribed Ritalin is more than I wanna admit tbh
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After the doctor took me off of Ritalin I only got into one fight but the guy was bullying me for the whole school year the teachers didn’t do ■■■■ all about it so I snapped I zero tolerance for bullying here in Ontario or anywhere in the world is a lie completely not true from my experience and what I’ve heard
Are you diagnosed with ADHD? Cause Ritalin makes psychosis worse.
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Not anymore I was misdiagnosed with ADHD my mania looks a lot like ADHD even too this day
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I still resent the fact the quack doctor put me on it
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I didn’t complete college.
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I did go to college but had trouble finding a job with education I got and then got mentally ill and find out the field doesn’t accept people with bipolar, so I guess the jokes on me.
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I failed to get my degree.
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I got my degree but can’t even have a simple easy job now on 6mg risperidone.
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I was severely depressed in college and then did a hallucinogen at a frat party far from home in another state
Sent me into a tailspin
Never graduated but accumulated enough credits for a Substitute teacher certificate
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I’ve just got 6 O levels. Was admitted to a psych hospital, for the 1st time the term I should’ve taken A levels . Tried too soon after release from that psych admission to do an A level correspondence course. Stopped after a few weeks. Have done no exam type studying since then -47 years ago. Have rebuffed several attempts to do a course of some kind, because of ‘bullying related trauma’. Sometimes- I feel inferior and no good because of it.
My illness started when I was 16. It slowly got worse over the next couple years. 12th grade was hell but somehow managed to graduate with honors. I spent one year in university before deciding I couldn’t do it. I ended up in the mental hospital a year later. I didn’t have a chance. Not having a university education used to bother me, now not so much.
I left school in year 10. Never got a higher level of education than that. My sz started getting bad in teen years for me too. But ive self educated a lot since then. Read a multitude of books on various topics. It wont get me a job but i like knowing interesting stuff as an adult.
I didnt go to college. And i did ■■■■ from k-12. Missed 3rd 4th nd 6th grade. 7th grade to 12th was special ed. 11th and 12th was an alternative program.
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I have mixed feelings about this thread it’s nice to see I’m not alone in this but It also sucks for everyone here that they didn’t get a good opportunity to get to go to college thanks tho I feel stupid alot of the time I see everyone else get jobs get there own home and ■■■■ and I get jealous at times sometimes I’m bitter about it because I wanna succeed in life