Mental hospital cant give me a answer

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hi.
i dont want to trigger anyone so read at own risk.

im in a mental hospital atm. i feel like the whole setting is planned out. i ask to talk to the workers about 5 times a day where i tell my beliefs, theories and past. but i get more and more of a feeling of being mocked and manipulated by the workers. i feel like being at the hospital is my only way of getting better but my mood switches so fast. i talk to them and feel super good then i start thinking and making theories and feel manipulated and bullied. i try to conclude that these thoughts are right and a form of therapy.
i have no clue what they are talking about, i cant follow the conversation, i pick up on words i hear and put them together.

i really want to be social and have a fun and talk with people but i end up feeling bullied and manipulated. this post is the stuff i tell them, i dont want to bother you or them with my problems, i want to be part of society.

i read alot and im starting to wonder if im a psychopat or socipath, maybe thats the reason for me not being accepted or functioning.

i hope i didnt cause any discomfort to any of you, i just want to know the answer to why i experience this. the torture of not knowing if im ever going to be ok is messing me up. thanks

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Youll be ok. You sound like you’re in the right place (hospital). You just need to give it some time.

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Keep talking to the workers, you are in the right place and they will help you get back to feeling better.

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You’ll feel better soon! :slight_smile: be hopeful, the medicines the doctors have helped you find take a bit of time to work that’s all. This illness was causing your mind to race, and when things are moving really fast it’s hard to see things for what they really are and we have to make many assumptions which turn out not to be true. Just like your heart, or your back can be overworked, so can your brain. And when it’s overworked it becomes damaged and needs to be repaired. The sooner it is the better off one is! I thank God that you’re in a hospital where you’re safe and getting better every day. Just as surely as a wound heals and disappears in time, so your mental and emotional wounds will heal.

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I can give you advice…

I was at the mental hospidal. I asked my.art therapist to call me an ambulance cause i could feel my mind started to go under.

So i was sitting at the hospidal without a mind and didnt lnow what to do?

I was on a sofa and the nurses were on their station…i observed them and wondered…why are they so calm? And why am i not calm? Do we live on the same planet? Why dont they see something is bad?

And then i realized that i was angry…and they were not angry. And then i thought maybe i also should not be angry…like them.

That day my mind went back into place and soon i was out of the hospital.

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@anon62371846 has given you great advice

You shouldn’t worry about triggering someone, this post is normal, you speak about your troubles.
Psychopath wouldn’t want to be nice with people, he would abuse others. So don’t worry about that either.

You can talk with staff there and you can talk with people here. Both of us understand what are you going through and you will be fine. That impulse to create false theories in your mind will dissipate eventually.

I am like this too.

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thanks everbody, i appriciate it.

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Very beautiful…

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