I am worried I might be headed in that direction. My mom told me once that if I am ever suicidal that she would highly consider putting me in a hospital because she would be worried that I would kill myself (duh). Here is the thing. I am suicidal. I am absolutely NOT threatening to commit suicide on here. I have done no planning of it. But I do constantly feel like I want to die and I do have pretty serious suicidal ideation. What if she finds out? Will she put me in one? Plus, if I eventually do get a diagnosis of SZ, and my hallucinations and delusions get worse, then will I be put in one. Part of me believes that maybe I am better off. Maybe it would allow me to not be bothered by idiots like my brother and dad (my brother constantly makes fun of me, suggesting that I am faking it, etc and it is just really annoying). Are they bad places to be in?
PS: I’m just seeking advice because I’m kind of panicking right now about a lot of ■■■■but if you feel the need to shut down this topic of being suicidal I would understand @anon82948922@SzAdmin
When I was diagnosed, they said I wouldn’t have to go in again unless I quit my meds and had another episode (I had not yet started the medication, as this was the time of my diagnosis). I was a minor at the time. My advice, if you don’t want to go into a mental hospital, is to go see a doctor about it now. Get on the right meds (this could take a few months, but don’t worry, I was lucky with getting on them immediately and so have others been) and keep with them. Stick with them. You will feel much better.
No, I was diagnosed fairly recently and was never violent. I could have been, because I definitely had plenty of violent voices in my head (one time I was told to strangle my grandma). But because I had never been violent in my entire life, and showed no signs of becoming so, they decided that I wouldn’t have to go unless I went into the deep end again.
It seems to be different for everyone.
I was traumatized, and frightened. Never want to be there again… I won’t even see my doctor or therapist, anymore from fear.
However, I have heard some people say they were a nice, revitalizing, a break away from the world.
You will have to find out for yourself.
@Bunny maybe you can find a new doctor and therapist who will be kinder to you.
@Jake13 sounds like you’re set up to be on the road to recovery, eventually. Just make the step to go to your doctor if you can, and make sure they’re a good doctor.
@Bunny I agree. It’s one thing to have some delusions. I can’t judge whether they are real or not because people really are reading my minds so it could be the same for you. But if it is making it impossible for you to function we want you to get help.
@chessai@jake13
I feel pretty stable and no, I am not medicated. My doctor didn’t think I need any meds. The only time I feel unstable is when my anxiety or depression gets a little out of control, but I always manage, somehow.
I don’t know what real, sometimes. But I keep going.
The only thing that keeps me from functioning is my dead, zombie-like brain. I think that it might be a physical thing, though. So, I am going to go get my nutrient levels tested, on tuesday.
You need not worry about me.
They’re not really bad places to be in. It’s never for that long of a time. And even if it was, it’s a safe place to be. Sometimes they give you computers and TVs and movies.
You also don’t have to take the medications you’re allowed to refuse and just go to the therapies. Some people actually really like hospitals.
I don’t really mind them and you can make a lot of friends in the hospitals. It’s kind of boring sometimes, but it’s not really that big of a deal. Sometimes hospitals can be a big help.
If you’re really suicidal then it’s possible that hospitals can help you.
They’ll help stabilize you and if you keep a positive attitude you can make friends in the hospital too.
It’s not really a bad place. It defiantly is safe and sometimes necessary. Sometimes it can actually be good too. Depends on your situation really.
It’s incredibly boring, in youth psych hospitals there is basically no one else with schizophrenia (but they all take antipsychotics), you go to group 2/7. Staff in youth hospitals are untrained in dealing with psychosis because all the people there are there for depression and stuff. The only other person I met that experienced psychosis was a bipolar person. It’s just group, then, group, group, and group. Once you’re in, they can keep you there for up to month (“72 hours” they said) because a 72 hour hold (which usually goes on for at least 80 hours because they don’t release patients at night and they have to do a lot of paperwork) can easily turn into a 2 week hold, and then longer if you do things like refusing to take your meds, go catatonic, stop eating, et cetera because then you’re a “danger to yourself” or “gravely disabled.”
It’s basically terrible, but you make really good friends quickly, and I don’t think I would have recovered if I wasn’t hospitalized. It’s a necessary evil.
It depends on where you live whether or not they can forcibly administer medicine. The state I live in, they can and they will. And it’s safe in that you won’t die, but being held against one’s will is not what I think of when I think of a safe place.
