Sorry guys for the continued negativity and suicidal posts that I’ve been writing.
I’m not alright, physically and mentally. However, I have been feeling a lot better than before and my knees are healing better as well. My dogs have been respecting me and walking with much patience when I’m taking daily walks with them.
I’m going in and out of psychosis, it seems; and I’m struggling a lot with paranoia and delusions. No hallucinations, but I’m becoming overwhelmed by sounds, paranoia, and I’ve developed a delusion which I think that I’m dreaming and this world isn’t real.
Your support helped me to get out of my suicidal thoughts last night, and I didn’t end up hurting myself at all. Talking to you guys have helped me to figure out my current mental health state and take care of my body also (my body has been a jerk to me lately).
I keep losing touch with reality but surprisingly Cocoa keeps checking up on me and licking me every hour or two. Or Romeo keeps poking me with his fur. I didn’t know that my dogs could help me to manage my mental health issues.
Thank you- all of you- for your support. It means a lot to me.
Cocoa and Romeo are ooooh so cute! Way glad you have them!!
I’m so sorry you’ve been struggling so much! I wish I could take it all away! I am way excited to hear your are feeling a bit better, though I know it’s still hard. Great your knees are healing, and wonderful that walks aren’t too strenuous!
ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC that you didn’t hurt yourself last night!! I’m so proud of you!! And I’m really grateful you were protected!
How does losing touch with reality affect you? What do you do? What is your plan to recover?
I seriously do not wish my struggles on anyone, however. You are kind and generous, and you do not deserve so much suffering.
Ironically, my physical illness saved my life. Although my body is losing muscle slowly, it made me know that my life is not just vain. However, I still have urges to hurt myself and you are so kind. Thank you so much.
Losing touch makes me feel like everything is a dream. I’m also very delusional during that time, and I tend to believe that I’m not real. So in my blurred state, I call my dogs and my Jack Russell occasionally barks in return. He also likes to rub his fur on me and lick me. So it’s a blessing to have these dogs for sure.
I’m juggling between physical and mental struggles, personally lol. Not sure if I have a plan, however. I’m only in for 3 years of my clinical MD so still learning about the physical part. I’ll keep you updated on that as well, but not sure if others will be interested.
Hey there, im sorry you are struggling. I dont have much useful to say, but i just wanted to tell you to feel welcome to share your struggles with us here on the forum. Im thinking of you and wish things turn better for you. Good that the dogs help you so much!
keep us posted on how you’re doing.