Once you drop acid, there are synopses in your brain that will no longer completely connect. The more times you do it the harder it is for your brain’s synopses to connect, which makes it hard to have a sense of reality and time.
I don’t really know what long term impact it may have had.
The tabs I did probably about 10 times, and again another 10ish times using the liquid stuff on sugar cubes.
Not sure how much it is to blame either on my current mental health
Had to stop smoking weed after I took acid, as it was making me hallucinate and it tipped me into a psychosis in the end when I was 16/17
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Hopefully it didn’t have a huge impact on your mental health
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I have delusions that don’t go away. They feel real sometimes. I don’t hear voices. My brain is very powerful and convincing. I don’t see things, just patterns and I store a lot of information and do nothing all day.
Nothing seems to work. At least Vraylar makes me feel good and sane. I struggle with severe negative symptoms. Delusions are persistant and treatment resistant. I guess caffeine can worsen delusions I think?
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In my experience delusions are worse than hallucinations. Sometimes hallucinations become delusions too.
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Not true, I never read or knew anything about schizophrenia and I had thoughts about killing my family. Media doesnt make you violent. Its the medical illness and street drugs that make schizophrenics violent. Tons of studies on these. Violence rate in schizophrenics with or without street drugs. Street drugs increase violence rate by a lot.
Also why not all schizophrenics who watch these medias become violent?
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Media influences what you believe, undoubtedly! Or they wouldn’t invest billions in advertising if it didn’t work.
What ever you believed in the time of your psychosis obviously influences not just your thoughts but if you hear voices too.
I have never been a violent sz and have taken street drugs.
If your sz manifested in violence towards your family and you claim media had no influence, and as you say before that you haven’t been traumatised, where do you think your violence comes from?
Could it be your way of dealing with things as a child with inner rage and sibling rivalry? What is it about you, your life that upbringing that brought about your condition and thoughts of harming others?
You often blame everything on schizophrenia like you have had no influence on your own life and outlook. Oh! I’ve been violent, blame it on the sz. Oh, I can’t be bothered to do anything, it must be the sz etc. At some point we all have to take responsibility, sz seems your easy way out from learned helplessness imho.
From the illness itself. I am always violent off meds. Street drugs were linked to high violence in many studies some posted here. Why not all schizophrenics who watch media are violent?
Meds reduce my anger threshold.
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You obviously dont have a severe case of sz.
Not all people become ill. Not all people who take drugs become sz etc.
It is a strawman argument to have a hard and fast rule and apply it to each and everyone and to say all people who watch media become violent and vice versa.
I was inferring that media influence lives and it does. To what extent depends on the individual. How vulnerable that person is will alter their reaction to it.
Why you are a violent person off meds I cannot answer. Were you a violent child? Did you get your own way as a child by violence? I could just as easily ask why aren’t all violent children schizophrenic? Absurd isn’t it?
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No, I was a very calm, very smart and very peaceful child. Its not in my personality to be violent. I dont know why you’re so antimedicine. Schizophrenia is a medical disease and its not caused by media.
Because we have different genetics and levels of stress.
I never said it was. I inferred that media influences outlooks and your innermost belief systems. How one behaves after media influence can be radically altered by it especially if you have sz, hence having a alien delusion from having watched sci-fi movies, or cia delusion from espionage movies. Before tv no one had such delusion, it was ghost stories and religious social influence.
Schizophrenia is a disease, and it is influenced by society including the all pervading media that drowns in it. Not media causes schizophrenia.
Off meds I start thinking that my brothers are stealing my energy and that they caused my sz so I attack them. On meds I know that this is nonsense and I laugh at the person I was off meds.
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What are your beliefs on energy?
I just feel that they caused my sz because I am jealous of them seeing them living normally and happily.
I just think that when off meds. On meds I am slightly jealous but I dont go and attack them like I do off meds.
You didn’t answer my question. You jumped a step, as to a possible reason why you are violent which could be jealousy.
I am jealous because they dont have any illness. Again meds reduce my anger threshold because my thinking is much more logical.
Yeah, I get that.
But what are your beliefs on “energy”?