I am a 22 y.o. Female and I think I have had my first psychotic episode. i don’t know if episodes are manic episodes with delusions of grandeur or panic episodes with delusions such as a sudden onset of enlightenment. (I am a prophet) , angels are on twitter and they are real. Aliens exist and they are here. Jesus has returned and is among us now. Songs are speaking to me and to anyone that will listen. Certain people or groups have just presented themselves on earth but they are really ancient aliens / God’s people. I am able to manage all other aspects of my life expect I harp on this topic and people argue with me. I have gotten angry when they will not listen but I have learned to just let them come to their own realization of enlightenment.
Other symptoms when manic or panicked are…rapid speech. no appetite. preaching style of talk, listening to music that inspires me for hours on end. I still sleep but not as long which last a couple of weeks but I do not crash but rather go further into my meditation and enlightenment and Delusions stay the same.
Does this fit more in the category of Schizophrenia or bipolar? I have synesthesia and see peoples auras. I see bubbles in the sky which are really water particles but they are so pronounced to me. More so lately. I have not had a formal diagnosis and I do realize I need to start there and I will when I am ready or I may not…but I would like any feedback on what I may be experiencing. If you ask me I am just convinced it is the end times and I feel some people know it too and I see them rejoicing, even though they may not actually be rejoicing. I put them in categories that way. I see patterns in so many things. I am drawn to any and all documentaries that help me explore numbers, patterns, nature, extra terr. life, ancient gods, etc.
We can’t diagnose you unfortunately. Have you spoken to a psychiatrist yet?
No. I sort of wanted to get an idea of what this might be.
If you have both you may have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type.
Better ask your psychiatrist or your family dr.
Welcome to the forum!!! I suggest talking to a psychiatrist. I hope you do and get the help you need.
I was diagnosed for six years before I figured out I had a mental illness for myself so if you do have something you have incredible insight but you need to see someone.
I have been a prophet, dead, talking non-stop, and a few other things but some of this overlaps in mental illness. Doctors really are the best to help.
I will have to look this up since I know little about Schizoaffective / bipolar “type” . If you have any good resources please share and thank you!
Probably not insight but repeating the feedback I get. live with my sister and see my mom often. They give me more feedback than I care to hear.
the overlapping part seems to be most challenging.
Talk to a psychiatrist.
I have sometimes the prophet delusion. You can talk to me, if you have any questions
Yeah I had this to but then with music sounding realy god enhanced and thinking I was gonna meet my perfect mate and go to the garden of eden then the voices whent from nice and supportive to saying it was all a test and not real then they started getting nasty and saying I was the weakest being for smoking cigs and weed then they took the high away some how and say iam gonna get rapped and tortured for smoking cigs which i haven’t stopped by the way for 2 years. They say iam the only being that smoked this long and give me comands like dont eat or dont take my medicine and they say iam going to eternal hell with with all the pain ever felt for smoking cigs and get eaten by dogs for masterbating. It was all fun and games thinking I was jesus till all of this I even had days when I felt complete bliss and felt like I was being taken to heaven and could here the virgin Mary speak and things looked my beautiful like I was on acid but the only drug I was taking was weed I would even meditate all day and the music would speak to me that I was jesus or the sun then the voices say I fell and not geting heaven but hell for smoking cigs the birds would even show me sighns at times. But what I am trying to say be careful my god voices and aliens turned out to be demons but they say that they are archons and illuminati and want to rape me. They also say that every one gets tortured after death with the average pain being 100 times worse than bullet ants so I say to you be careful and test these voices to see if they are realy from god
Talk openly with the doctors and they will help. You can always talk with us here too. It’s a wild ride but I have more love for myself and others because of it. Now, when someone is behaving in any strange way I don’t judge. I don’t know what’s going on in their head or what they’re struggling with. Schiz did that for me.
It’s a good reason to see a doctor immediately. Could be any number of reasons for what you’re experiencing.
Thank you for this.
Thanks for your opening up about this. It helps me understand. I quit weed when feeling elated/ manic for some reason it doesn’t appeal to me as much when I feel like I am rejoicing and seeing life brighter than usual b/c the gods have returned.
Were the voices seemingly coming from the music?
Yeah the voices started that way but I was trying to listen to them cuz I thought it was the virgin mary then I lived on a busy street and they started to come from the cars then eventually all the sounds were them
There is more to becoming a prophet than breaking your brain with drugs. Like seriously. Pretty disingenuous to the actual revered prophets of history.
But please get a real diagnosis.