I turn 52 in a few days. I lived through a 29 year battle with the devil, a voice, a failed me. He lost power after all those years. Now he can’t hurt me without hurting himself. I found out he was trying to kill me all those years, he came out of the closet and doesn’t hide it anymore. He had patience and control but I outlasted him and he fell apart. I should be doing better but I am so incredibly burned out! I just have a fear of the economy collapsing and losing my home. I simply can’t live in a shelter, they make you stay outside from 7 a.m. to 7 p.m. Unless I can find a better shelter. If I have just enough to get by I’ll be fine. I need more faith. Don’t Panic!
Man, half the time with that stuff what’s on the label is not the same as what’s in the bottle. No thank you.
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@shutterbug it quite common in my country to be prescribed Chinese herbs as an alternative to western produced drugs. It’s seen as the healthy option. It’s definitely not an internet bought scam. I however don’t trust the Chinese herbs also but it’s worth a go if it gives me get up and go again. I’ve met the dr of the clinic once before as I had to get up the courage to go and ask for Ed meds. But the nurses were all very kind and professional and the dr spoke a little English which helped. Anyway we will see I have to wait until I get some cash in the bank and then get the nerves to go again.
@Jinx are you ok? Has age triggered you? I can understand the loss of years fighting this battle. I’ve been through a lot of meds and not knowing what sickness I had. I’ve spent the best years of my life in bed and sleeping years away. Now on the handful of meds I’m on I feel much better and in control. I just wish I could turn the clock back and get those years back. Take care and if you feel triggered take a pill and chill.
@Jinx maybe if you feel so burned out it could be testosterone too? I understand completely what you’re saying. Anything for the a bit of energy and motivation. I too would fear being in a shelter too and treated poorly. I hope it doesn’t come to that for you.
My brother used to say “take a chill pill”. I really hated him and repressed the hatred and only recently let it go.
Was it the way he said it or what he said? There are times for me when the only option to get me from the dark places my mind goes is to take a pill and sleep it off.
I slept all day. I’ve always held resentments for life. I had countless ones then my mind went black.
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