Major paranoia

So yesterday I had a major episode of Hallusinations and are so real to ignore. As a matter of fact I felt like it was one of the most real episodes I’ve ever had. I felt people were indeed talking about me. I heard a cop saying through the loud speaker of his car"i am here because of you" or something like that. I thought was just hallucinating but when I went outside there was the sheriff’s car parked talking to a neighbor. I also heard my family and friend voices and when I listen to music I can hear them talk back to me as well as tv. Now the creepiest part about it is that I think ppl can hear me or see me. And people’s reaction goes based on my thought. If it is negative the are mad if it’s positive they get happy. What Would you recommend me to do? And how do I forget about this episode?

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Talk to a doctor. If he prescribes medication, take it as directed. And do your best to stop using. Speed is worst drug you can use when you’re schizophrenic. Even those who have no underlying psychiatric disorder can become psychotic when they use speed. So even if it’s a toxic reaction to the drugs, you have to stay clean and seek some kind of treatment.

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Thank you I am researching for places to go to. I do have an intake to a place called sovereign Health in San Clemente but it won’t happen until February 15th.

is it intensifying? if you feel its doing that you need prompt help. get it any way you can. even drivingbto the hospital.

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Yes it’s that bad. I also thought they were people hacking my phone and I’d see people I know males. But I heard my mom talking to me and telling me. Son how stupid you must be now ur all scared look at u. Ugh I even thought of killing myself. I even thought you all on here saw stuff about me. Cuz the voices said so.

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I get similar episodes. They are just terrible. It helps to distract yourself. It helps me when I have a conversation with somebody. Like a friend or my counselor. My episodes last at least over 2 hours. How long does yours last.

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I heard my neighbors as clear as they commenting on what the voices were telling me. Yes It was not nice stuff.

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compared to how you were when you came on here a while ago you seem to be getting worse. are you still going on walks and doing normal things like that. what i mean is; are you still coherent and connected with reality? if not maybe you need to go to the hospital and get treatment

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@Jake it lasts about 24 hrs until I fall asleep and wake up. I don’t hear ppl commenting but if I’m around a person I see their reactions for days it lasts about a week. Until I use again and it is almost impossible to fight the craving of what I binge on. It is horrifying.

It takes about a week to start coming back to reality. But idk if I can handle it alone this time. It’s too mych.

Yeah my problem is I think everybody is reading my mind while I’m getting an episode.

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Is there any part of you that feels good about the fact that people are talking about you, or that you hear them talk back to you on the tv? I know when I went through this, there was a small dose of grandiosity within me that kept the delusion going, It doesn’t get better if you keep reinforcing the things that are happening to you by seeking them out. Not saying YOU are doing this but it was a part of what I was doing. I liked believing I was getting messages from the tv, and that songs were written about me. But ultimately, it always ends up in hospitalization and that is no place I want to be again. Reality is a good place if you have a positive attitude towards it. Maybe try avoiding situations where you think these things will happen to you again. Tell people close to you what’s going on but don’t try to convince them that it is actually real. It’s not, if it were you wouldn’t be the only one worried about it. Our brains are very powerful and can create a reality for you that is hostile and just plain scary. Find the right meds for the voices.

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@themooniesareup indeed at some point I thought famous ppl were my friends heck yeah I felt important. But now my psychosis has become bad even tho there is good out there in voices most of them are bad because they try to convince ppl from hating me because of the awful things I get to hear and my brains processes the sentence. They are mostly insulting and embarrassing. So not fun any longer.

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I’ve had the famous thing too. So weird. Dude it’ll get better but there HAS to be a decent place open in the mean time.

Are u opposed to just going to a psychiatrist and starting taking meds and doing it on ur own? I’ve been to the hospital like 4 times it’s not that great and ideally I woulda just gone to a doc and started the medication had I known what’s going on. Can’t u just do that? I’m almost envious of u that u actually know what’s going on. Not many people are like that. Literally just make an appointment and go into a doc and they’ll put u on meds. One warning tho they might want u to go to a hospital if u talk about too many intense things so I’d just stick to paranoia and occasional hallucinations in the past and ud be fine.

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@anon20742722 tbh it’s taking me 3 long years to realize that it’s only my brain playing tricks on me and because it seems so damn real it is easy for us to think wait who has the power to control my mind? Hmmm the government but if we look at it scientifically it makes so much more since and the evidence of this is so much brighter. It is so much better that I know how to handle it that I am not as scared as I used to be.

If you’re using speed or meth, you are purposefully making yourself sick. So, quit the drugs first before seeing a psychiatrist. If you are clean of drugs for two months and still hallucinating and delusional, see a psych doc.

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