Grrr. So I have to vent. I needed my car today, which I am letting my brother use for work. Unfortunately, I forgot to tell my brother this and woke him up at 3 to tell him, saying I needed my car tomorrow. This morning I hear him about to walk at the door. I wake up and am like wtf, you’re just going to leave when I told you I needed the car. He says, “you said tomorrow.” I said yes I did,but meant when you wake up, I meant today or else I wouldn’t have woken you up in the middle of the night.
Now I am just pissed and I proceed to tell him that he is ungrateful. (He never cleans, does housework, cook, mom takes him a lunch to work, and does his laundry) I tell him, "I’m not your mom, I don’t have to do ■■■■ for you. Even mom doesn’t HAVE to do ■■■■ for you. Yet we continue to do it and you’re completely ungrateful. (he’s very mean to our mom, disrespectful, says things like “shut up bitch” even though she does and always has done a lot for him.
I’m glad I said something, but I went about it all the wrong way. Flinging the f word around, and just being mad over the misunderstanding. He needs to grow up a lot, but also I know he has many of the issues I do. He was diagnosed as psychotic disorder NOS, then bipolar, and I don’t know what currently. I just shouldn’t have blown up on him. I could have talked with him civilly, some other time Now I’m up, can’t sleep, mad, and feeling guilty. I let my emotions of anger get the best of me
Thanks for reading, sorry for the rant.